Agamemnon's Daughter: A Novella & Stories
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Agamemnon's Daughter: A Novella & Stories
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Overview
This collection also showcases two masterful stories: “The Blinding Order,” a parable about the uses of terror in the Ottoman Empire, and “The Great Wall,” a chilling duet between a Chinese official and a soldier in the invading army of the great conqueror, Tamerlane.
Product Details
| ISBN-13: | 9781628722338 |
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| Publisher: | Arcade |
| Publication date: | 12/03/2011 |
| Sold by: | SIMON & SCHUSTER |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 240 |
| Sales rank: | 308,042 |
| File size: | 681 KB |
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CHAPTER 1
Agamemnon's Daughter
1
From outside came sounds of holiday music, bustling crowds and shuffling feet — the special medley of a mass of people on their way to the start of a parade.
For perhaps the tenth time in a row, I cautiously pulled the curtain aside. There had been no change in what was to be seen in the street: a slow-moving eddy in the human flood streaming toward the center of town. Borne on its waves were placards, bouquets of flowers, and portraits of members of the Politburo, just like the ones we saw last year. The politicians' faces looked even more stilted than usual as they jiggled along above the thronging mass of heads and arms. A slip of a placard-bearer's hand sometimes made the painted portraits seem to cast oblique and threatening glances. But even when they came face-to-face, not one of them gave a sign of recognizing any other.
I let go of the curtain and realized that I still had the invitation gripped tightly in my hand. It was the first time I had been entitled to sit in the grandstand at the May Day parade, and I still could not quite believe that it really was my own name written on the card. When I first received it, the Party secretary seemed as stunned as I was. It wouldn't be fair to say that the only emotion in his eyes was that of envy: there was also stupefaction. To some extent, that was perfectly justifiable. I wasn't the kind of person who was usually seen at presidium meetings or invited to sit in the stands at public celebrations. Even if (as I later learned) the vice-secretary himself had put my name forward when requested by the local Party committee to suggest people beyond those who came up every year, he was still astonished by the result. Although he had proposed my name, he probably never expected his new list would be approved. "They always ask us for new names," he must have thought, "but it's always the same ones who get invited in the end."
"Congratulations, congratulations," he hissed as he gave me the card, but at the very moment he handed it over, his eyes seemed to me to express something beyond envy and surprise. It hovered within the smile that gave it life, yet it was something separate and different. The right word for it might have been connivance. In short, it was an intense, interrogative, and rather sly smile, but sly in that particular wellmeaning manner that arises between people who share some secret involvement. His smile seemed to be saying: "This invitation didn't fall off a tree, did it, pal? What job did you do to earn the reward? But who cares anyway! Congratulations, my boy!"
It was so crass I felt myself blush. All the way home, I could not throw off a guilty feeling, as I wondered over and over again: he must be right, but what did I do to earn this invitation?
Isolated from the hubbub on the street, the apartment seemed even more silent than usual Silent and empty. Everyone had left for the starting point of the parade, and my own steps, far from filling the space of the apartment, only emphasized how silent and empty it was. Even the silence and the emptiness had a peculiar quality, as did everything else on a day of that kind.
I was waiting for Suzana. However, the feeling that had burrowed into my chest was not remotely like the anxiety customarily associated with waiting for a woman. It was much more crushing, and no doubt heightened by the music and the unending, exhausting commotion rising from the street. I almost thought that one of the portraits would end up detaching itself from its bearer, then float up to my window, and look inside with its painted frozen stare, and say: "And what are you doing up here? Aha! So that's the reason! You've relinquished your place down there on the reviewing stand to wait for a woman, haven't you?"
"If I'm not there by half past eight, don't wait for me," Suzana had said.
Each time those words came into my mind my eyes glided inexorably toward the couch where our last conversation had taken place. It had been infinitely sad. She'd been half- undressed, and her words had come out the same way — in shreds, with only half their meaning. It was getting harder and harder for her to see me, she said. Papa's career was on the rise ... Their family was more than ever in the limelight ... Two weeks before, at the last plenum of the Central Committee, Papa had gone up another rung ... So it was obvious she would have to make changes to her way of life, to her wardrobe, to the people she saw. Otherwise she might hurt his career.
"Was it he who asked you for that" — I still didn't know what to call that — "or did you decide for yourself?"
She looked me in the eyes. "He did," she answered after a pause "But ..."
"But what?"
"When he explained it all to me, I saw his point of view."
"Really?"
I thought my eyes must have gone bloodshot, as if someone had thrown sand in my face. Guiltily, she laid her head on my shoulder. She ruffled the hair on the nape of my neck with cold fingers that felt as jagged as broken test tubes.
But why? I wanted to protest. Why just you? The children of the others make the most of it, and lead freer lives, with cars and parties at their villas by the shore ... I surely would have remonstrated with her along those lines if she hadn't brought up the issue herself. The others usually let their children enjoy more freedom, but her father ... he really was a different kind of person. Who could tell what was going through his mind? Or was he, on the contrary, completely consistent, and was that not a principle to which he could not allow himself to make an exception? Anyway, if he was standing to the right of the Guide at the First of May parade, it would be all over between us.
I said nothing, and she thought I hadn't quite understood. "Please understand," she sobbed. Given the state of public opinion, her father could not comprehend her having an affair with a young man who was practically engaged to somebody else. Word would leak out, eventually. Especially now, don't you see? It could not fail to.
I didn't know what to reply, but my eyes wandered toward her legs.
"Even for you, it's not wise," she added a minute later.
"I don't give a damn."
"Well, you can say that now, but you'll be sorry later on. Especially as you're in the running for the Vienna scholarship."
I carried on staring at the naked parts of her body. To be honest, I wasn't at all sure I was inclined to swap the smooth, white body of this half-girl, half-woman for anything else in the world, including Vienna. The Champs-Elysées of her thighs led all the way to her Arc de Triomphe with its immortal flame ... I had never before met a woman like Suzana, who kept on smiling with ecstasy during lovemaking, as if she were in the midst of a blissful dream. Her bliss then spread to her cheekbones and spilled onto the white pillow, which even when it was abandoned, after her departure, seemed to keep on glowing faintly in the dark, the way a television screen appears to emit light for a few seconds after you've switched it off. Everything about her betrayed a passionate, serious, and fervent attention to the matter of love.
2
I continued to stare at the empty couch while the distant sounds of celebration echoed in my ears. Snatches of our conversations kept coming back to me, but in heightened form, as if intensified by the feeling of loss, like jewels enhanced by a display case. If on the First of May ... But you mustn't take it to heart ... It won't he any easier for me, you know ... I know what you're going to say ... But I simply have to make the sacrifice ... I'll never stop thinking of you ...
"The sacrifice," I repeated to myself. "So that's what it's called.
I trusted everything she said, because she always took things seriously and was not in the habit of using words lightly, of dissimulating or putting on airs. If she was convinced that this ... sacrifice ... had to be made, there was no point trying to make her change her mind.
In fact, I made no attempt to do so. When she'd gone, I spent hours pacing the floor and ended up in front of the bookcase. Half dreaming, I took out a book I had just read, and flicked through the pages again. It was The Greek Myths by Robert Graves.
I wasn't able then, and have never since been able, to work out by what mysterious path the mechanisms of my mind stripped the word sacrifice of its ordinary meaning (Comrades! The age in which we live demands sacrifices for the sake of oil ... The sacrifices of our cattle breeders ... and so on) and took it far, far back, to its grandiose and blood-soaked beginnings.
This flight into the remotest past was undoubtedly a major turning point for me. From then on, I needed to take only a modest step to see in the sacrifice that Suzana had been talking about something similar to the fate of Iphigenia.
Why had the parallel occurred to me? Because Suzana had used the same word? Because her father, like Iphigenia's, was a high dignitary of the state? Or simply because Graves's book had kept me buried in the world of myth for several days?
As I said, I couldn't fathom the reason why. But I was so feverishly impatient that I didn't even bother to sit down to reread all the pages about the legendary sacrifice of Agamemnon's daughter, from the various more or less plausible hypotheses about what had really prompted the leader of the Greeks to perform that mortal act, down to the speculations about a sham sacrifice, which is to say a show put on for the benefit of the army (with the girl being replaced at the last minute by a fawn), and so on.
What's the point of rereading all that stuff? I wondered. What use can it be? Nonetheless I carried on, avidly plowing through the heavy tome.
To launch the ancient Trojan Wars They offered up Iphigenia For the sake of our great cause I'll carry my darling to the pyre
Had I invented this verse while wandering like a lost soul around the apartment after I'd put the book back in its place on the shelf, or had I fished it out from a long-sunken memory of something I'd read years before? True sadness often makes me feel sluggish and slow. And that's how I felt then — drowsy, and unable to make things out. For instance, I was quite incapable of putting a name to the author of the poem. Nor was I up to deciding whether it was I or Suzana's father who was performing the sacrifice. Sometimes it seemed to be me and sometimes him; more likely, it was the two of us in tandem.
The noise from outside had subsided. The street must have emptied. The masses that were going to form the parade had already assembled in the starting area. But this deafening silence was just as hostile and burdensome as the earlier commotion had been. It was a constant reminder that my place was down there amid the festive pandemonium, and not up here all on my own.
Half past eight had come and gone. I could no longer pretend that there was any chance of Suzana turning up. She had always been punctual. I almost regretted her having a quality for which I had so often been thankful, since it now destroyed my last shred of hope. To begin with, I tried to rationalize: being five minutes late is a woman's privilege, even if Suzana had renounced it voluntarily. So I strove to find other reasons for making allowances — traffic jams are so common on celebration days — but instead of mitigating the torture of waiting, the explanations only made it worse. Then came the second set of five minutes, which was even gloomier than the first. Several times I found myself about to go out through the front door.
I decided to wait until a quarter to nine, and then leave for the grandstand, so as not to lose out on both fronts at once. The fear of what might happen if my absence were noticed had up to that point been overshadowed by waiting for her to come, which itself would have given me the strength to wriggle my way out of trouble. (I lostmy way ...The police closed the road earlier than I expected, and so on.) If only she had come ... Whereas now that I had lost her anyway, I had no reason to make things more difficult for myself by not showing up at the parade. Apart from which, I had a good chance of seeing her there, on the grandstand or right next to it, where the offspring of the elite were normally placed.
That last thought finally overcame my hesitation. At five to nine I opened the front door and set off.
3
There was no one on the stairs, and barely any passersby on the street outside. I felt relieved, initially, perhaps because of all the open space. I looked up, as if drawn by the magnetic force of someone else's eyes. Our neighbor was on his balcony, looking as sickly as ever, staring down at the street. I took a step to the side so as to get out of his line of sight. He was reputed to have laughed out loud on the day Stalin died, which brought his career as a brilliant young scientist to a shuddering halt. Many years had passed, of course, but if I remember rightly, a mask of supplication had remained frozen on his face ever since. He couldn't be the only person to have chuckled or laughed among the crowds at the funeral marches that were held that day — for no reason at all, or just for a second, or because their laughter-reflex mechanism had been disturbed, as often happens in such circumstances, but all explanations of such kind were systematically rejected. Every one of them was punished without mercy. Now, many years later, they were still easily identifiable by the wistful appearance they were condemned to wear for the rest of their lives to atone for having once laughed out loud.
You'd better spend your time thinking about the way you look! I told myself. My face was probably just as pained as my neighbor's.
As if fearing that my glumness might attract attention, I took the invitation card out of my pocket and pretended to be studying the verso side, which gave details of how to get into the stands.
Some of the people still in the street must have been in possession of invitations just like mine. You could tell who they were, not only because they were dressed to the nines, but from their attitudes, their postures, and their beaming faces. These features distinguished cardholders quite clearly from other pedestrians who had come down into the street in the hope of finding a spot where they could see the parade, or who had got separated from their delegations and were wandering around looking guilty.
Barricade Street, which runs parallel to the Grand Boulevard, was packed with people. A brass band could be heard thumping away in the distance, probably in the square where the stands had been put up. Each time I heard the beat, I walked a little faster, even though it wasn't quite nine o'clock yet and I had no real reason to hurry.
Cardholders were still mixed with other people in the street, but it wasn't long before a filtering device came into view. At the top of Elbasan Road, one of the sidewalks was open to all, but the other side, the right-hand side, was reserved for invitation- card holders only. The real checkpoint was presumably farther down — this was only a preliminary screening. All the same, most of those invited were happy to be separated henceforth from other people, who looked back at them, goggle- eyed.
I continued walking along the left-hand sidewalk, and was just speculating that Suzana would perhaps be in the CM stand, where I had my seat, when I bumped into Leka B.
I hadn't seen him for years. Sprightly and beaming (though his smile was distinct from the one that seemed to radiate from the little red flags of the day), he gave me a hug and a kiss on each cheek. To be honest, I couldn't think why he was so happy to see me again. We'd been pals years before, when I was a law student and he was enrolled at the School of Fine Arts, but not so close that long absence would make either of us miss the other very much.
"How are things?" he asked. "Do you like being a journalist? Lights, cameras, action — the cutting edge, eh?"
"How about you?" I responded. "Still at N?"
"Ah, let's talk about something else!" he said in the same playful tone. "I've not been doing too well. Actually, it wasn't so bad down there, but I did something stupid and got transferred to running amateur theatricals in the sticks." "Really?"
"Word of honor! I put on a play that turned out to contain no less than thirty-two ideological errors! Can you imagine? Well, that's all ancient history now, and when all's said and done I suppose I got off rather lightly."
My expression must have been hovering between amazement and disbelief, because he added: "You think I'm joking, but I'm telling you the plain truth, honestly."
And he went on in a lighthearted tone entirely devoid of self- pity or spite about his famous thirty-two ideological errors. It was as if he were delighted with the whole business and held it in secret admiration — though you couldn't tell whether what he admired were the people who had had sufficient wisdom and patience to pick out each one of his errors, or himself, as a man who had not committed a trivial blunder or a mere peccadillo, but had engineered a disaster of such magnitude, or else both at the same time.
(Continues…)
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Table of Contents
Translator's Note,
About Agamemnon's Daughter,
Agamemnon's Daughter,
The Blinding Order,
The Great Wall,