Table of Contents
Foreword Kathy Fagan xi
Prologue: Red Suede Pumas 3
Part I
1 Us 11
2 Broken Arm(s) 16
3 Girl Dad 24
Lesson #1 Never Let Anyone Win 27
4 Malibu Grill 29
5 March Madness 31
6 Too Much Alike 34
7 The Phone Call 42
8 Fuck You, ALS 49
Lesson #2 Make Your Last Dribble the Hardest 52
9 Feel My Muscle (Part I) 54
10 Out of Love 56
Lesson #3 Always Find the Center Mark 63
Part II
11 Kathryn (Part I: Winter 2018) 67
12 Wet Leaves (September 2018) 72
13 Kathryn (Part II: Winter 2019) 79
14 The Way We Sleep 84
15 I Hate Myself 88
Lesson #4 Occasionally Bank in a Free Throw 95
16 Back Porch 98
Lesson #5 Life's Most Important Metric 102
17 Fort Moultrie 104
Lesson #6 Keep Your Sneakers in the Trunk 109
18 Not a Buddha 111
Part III
19 Good People, Bad Times 119
Lesson #7 Ritual and Routine 124
20 Morphine 127
21 No Surrender 130
22 The Performance 136
23 Be With My People 140
24 The Unpaid Trillions 148
25 Guinness 151
Lesson #8 Let Me Be Your Flunky 155
26 KB Is Over There 157
27 Gezellig 162
28 High-Wire Act 168
29 The Many Goodbyes 175
Overtime: Feel My Muscle (Part II) 183
Acknowledgments 187