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CHAPTER 1
Miami, Florida April 11, 1998
"Pete Fernandez, troublemaker. How is that even possible?"
Pete whirled around and looked down the long, cavernous hallway that connected the second floor of Southwest Miami High's A and C wings. He yanked out the headphones that were blasting Oasis' Definitely Maybe album. He'd hoped to get through his Saturday cleanup duty unnoticed. But here was Patty Morales, ace softball pitcher, plucky newspaper editor, and Pep Club president, walking toward him, all smiles. He tried to avoid her eyes. They were friends, sure — they'd shared a few laughs in class, worked together on the school paper, hung out with some of the same people. But it ended there. They didn't hang out after school and Pete still felt a grating embarrassment when he relived their last conversation. The painful jumble of words continued to echo in his brain as they escaped his lips, stilted and slow, like a production assistant wheeled onto the anchor desk seconds before on-air.
Hey, um, Patty, prom's coming up, and I, uh, just wanted to see ... He could still feel the sheen of sweat on his hands. The dry, cottony mouth that prevented him from saying the words he'd practiced in front of the mirror just that morning.
Girls like Patty Morales didn't struggle for dates. She carried herself with a calm and ease that belied her true, potent mix of smarts, confidence, and beauty. She was out of his league, and Pete knew it. But he had to try.
She'd responded to Pete with a soft, warm smile that felt more like a dagger to the stomach. It wasn't so much that she said no, Pete realized later, as he replayed the exchange in his mind. It was the look of pity lurking behind the smile that made him feel like shit. Like a fool. He'd slinked away to his next class — his head down, eyes buried in his European history textbook as he sat in the back row of Ms. Delgado's class.
"I'm on garbage duty until graduation," Pete said as Patty approached.
Patty Morales and the prom were Pete's biggest concerns a few months ago, but that seemed like a distant car in the rearview mirror now. He was dealing with a set of problems that would have seemed unimaginable at the start of his senior year. For kicks, Pete and his now-former friend Javier Reyes had tried to make off with some forties of Olde English from a bodega in their suburban Miami neighborhood of Westchester. They'd failed in spectacular fashion. Instead of pulling off a daring, if somewhat moronic, act of resistance, Pete narrowly avoided being arrested — only to be placed under 24-hour surveillance by his father. His dad , Pedro Fernandez, dropped him off at school. He picked him up. If his dad had to work late, Pete was forced to sit in his airless office at police headquarters, the constant chatter and buzz of activity making it impossible to do anything beyond making tedious small talk with Carlos Broche, his father's burly and gruff partner, in the homicide department of the Miami PD. This was the new world order for Pete, at least until he graduated and left home — and his father — for good.
The incident had made the gossip rounds at Southwest, but Pete gained no currency in the eyes of his more rebellious peers or even his fellow bookish, shy types. It made him seem dumb. Because, well, it had been dumb. Pete still wasn't sure what had driven him to do it, aside from a desire to spite his father and impress Javier, a popular kid who had no reason to be driving around town with a likable but not popular guy like Pete. He wanted to show his friend he was tough, too, that he could hang with him and his kind. But he'd just shown Javier that he was a coward and fraud.
Though the infraction happened outside of school, the administration still felt the need to levy some kind of punishment on him — a move that came with his father's full support, Pete knew. All things considered, the punishment was mild, if tedious: school cleanup duty every Saturday morning until he graduated. Pete wandered the school grounds, tossing cigarette butts, plastic cups, fast-food containers, and an occasional condom into a clear plastic bag that he dragged behind him.
"Well, that's only two months away," Patty said, a polite smile on her face. "How long are you stuck today?"
"Until two."
"I'm working on some layouts for next week's issue of The Lancer, if you're bored," she said, giving him that sad smile again. "I could use your help. You're always good at coming up with those zinger headlines."
She felt bad for him. Pete's stomach lurched at the thought.
Pete was conflicted. He wanted to run, to leave this punishment — real and imagined — behind and seal himself away for as long as it would take. He didn't want to be tangled up in the pull of her sympathy. Yet her concern, which Pete could happily misinterpret as interest, beckoned him. He wanted to be near her. To smell her too-sharp perfume and listen to her breathy voice and to think, just for a moment, that he was part of her story. But what was left of his pride won out.
"No, thanks," he said. "I gotta head home after this. I'm on house arrest."
"Oh, okay," she said, a slight sadness creeping over her smooth features. She understood. Even a girl as friendly and warm as Patty knew how the social hierarchy of high school chugged along. They moved in different circles, only interacting for fleeting moments as they whizzed along their divergent paths.
Pete turned around, but then felt her hand on his shoulder.
"You know, Pete, I meant to tell you this before," she said, her words steady and unhurried. "When you asked me about prom."
About prom.
"It's not you, okay? I hope you know that," she said, taking a step closer, her hand still on his shoulder. "It's not that I wouldn't have had fun with you. But, I mean, I don't think of you like that, you know."
Like that.
"When you asked me, I wasn't in a good place. I'd just gotten fucked over by my ex — that guy from Columbus, Danny Castillo," she said. "And I had already told Mari and Illiet that we'd go together, you know, as friends? Single girls not needing a dude, right? So, I couldn't change it up on them at the last minute."
Heat spread over Pete's face and he knew his cheeks were red. He clenched the half-full garbage bag tighter, the plastic burying itself in the creases of his palm. He wanted to be anywhere but here. Even the musky, humid holding cell they'd thrown him into after the robbery, which smelled of urine and sweat, with its chorus of low, menacing voices paired with the methodical ticking of a clock, seemed preferable. The last thing he wanted to hear about was Patty's private-school ex-boyfriend.
"But it meant a lot that you asked me," she said, meeting his eyes. "I just wanted you to know."
She moved her hand away and gave him a languid wave. "So ... I'll be in the yearbook room if you want to stop by, okay?"
She smiled and then turned toward the student media room, glancing out the large, fingerprint-clouded windows that overlooked the patches of unkempt grass between the school wings.
Pete felt a surge of euphoria spread through him, like an energy drink kicking in. He made a mental note to ditch his garbage detail early so he could have a few minutes to say hi before his dad pulled up in front of the school.
But Pete never saw Patty alive again.
CHAPTER 2
Patty Morales turned right off the breezeway and walked toward A200, the student media classroom where the Southwest yearbook and newspaper set up shop. She didn't like coming in on the weekend, but it meant the office would be quiet and she could get work done. It also got her out of the house, away from her parents. She knew her dad would leave. It was only a matter of when. Her parents fought daily. The arguments never got physical, but the tension and anger permeated everything around the house. Terse exchanges in the morning as the three of them bustled through the kitchen. Snide remarks from her mother as her dad tried to make conversation over a rare family dinner. Tiny fissures in their daily lives that would continue to grow into a bottomless canyon that would swallow them all. Patty knew her mom was difficult. Loud, brash, opinionated. It was what had drawn her father to her when they were first dating, she guessed. That attraction was gone now, replaced by anxiety and resentment, a silent battle fought under the cover of long, painful silences that seemed to stretch for days. It meant her father came home late and left early, if he came home at all.
It was the nights spent elsewhere that sealed it. Patty wasn't stupid. She lived in the same house with her parents and heard the arguments, even behind closed doors. Patty felt the disdain that festered between them, replacing the warmth and love Patty had once thought immortal. Her father was spending most of his time elsewhere — and while her mother hadn't discovered a smoking gun in terms of his fidelity, it still had created an irreparable rift between them, and Patty took the brunt of the collateral damage. Yet Patty wasn't mad at her father. She loved them both and, even at the age of eighteen, understood that life was loaded with large swaths of gray. Her parents weren't perfect. Neither was Patty.
Patty used the key the media advisor, Mrs. Vazquez, had given her and walked into the classroom. She flipped the lights on and moved toward a bridge-like workstation set up near the back of the room for the newspaper staff's main editors. She sat in her usual seat and powered up her computer. As she waited for the Mac to awaken, her thoughts returned to her parents. She sighed deeply. Her house seemed forever altered — a place once bursting with memories of Nochebuena celebrations, birthdays, and anniversary parties had become simply the place where Patty slept.
Patty heard her beeper vibrate and grabbed her purse, sliding her hand inside the small brown bag. The pink pager's thin display revealed a familiar — but unexpected — phone number: Danny Castillo.
Patty wasn't sure if she could even count Danny — the tall, brooding Columbus High quarterback — as her ex-boyfriend. It started and ended in a brief and blinding flash of activity. From first kiss to drudging conclusion, the totality of their relationship felt more like a slapped-together TV montage than a true romance. They met at her friend Soraya's party a few months back. Mild flirting at first. His hand grazing hers as they sat on the long black couch. A lingering look as the conversation lulled to a stop. Shared sips from a lukewarm bottle of Corona. An ironic, awkward dance to Semisonic's obnoxious earworm "Closing Time" as the host ushered the stragglers out. Then the buzzed, zigzagging drive home, during which he hadn't tried a thing — no weaving lean-in for a kiss, no clumsy hand in her lap. Ever the gentleman, she mused.
The all-night phone calls started next. After dinner, she'd scurry to her room and close the door, knowing her parents were too caught up in whatever personal turf battle they were waging to think about her. It all seemed so frivolous now. But it had felt to Patty like she and Danny really talked, communicating on a deeper level — not just about school gossip or the music they were listening to or 90210-type bullshit, but things that felt substantial: what he wanted to do with his life, college, his family.
It seemed like a relationship, Patty thought, as she dropped the beeper into her purse and wheeled the creaky chair back toward the screen. She wasn't exactly super-experienced when it came to dating, having spent her high school years thinking about college and doing the things that would get her there. Patty wanted an Ivy League school, but she'd settle for anything that guaranteed her ample distance from the sweltering summers and family drama of Miami.
They'd gone on dates, they'd hung out with his friends, and spent time together at his house while his parents were away. Not time-time, but they did stuff. More stuff than Patty had done before. The bristle of stubble against her cheek, his hungry mouth on hers, the heat that seemed to radiate from him. It had all been new, passionate, and special. It made Patty wonder whether the heat and her parents' problems were good enough reasons to leave Miami, if Danny was going to stay.
The first doubt crept up on her like a toothache, more overt and bothersome as time passed. He'd invited her to go to church with him to some off-the-grid congregation she'd never heard of. Patty wasn't religious, but she was Cuban, and that meant she was Catholic. She couldn't remember the last time she'd been to a church service except for Christmas Eve, Easter, or a funeral. It wasn't part of her routine.
The church — or, God, in some form — had become a significant part of her father's life, though. From what little she picked up from the wall between the rooms, she knew her father spent his time away from home doing something spiritual, which her mom did not approve of or think much of. She still worried her father was having an affair, but there was little evidence to back that up. The truth — that her mild-mannered, humble father had strayed from his wife to embrace God — was much more bizarre to Patty than an extramarital indiscretion.
With all that background noise going on at home, Patty didn't have room for much more. So, she passed on Danny's church outing and he seemed okay at first. Easy. Patty had enough to worry about, anyway, what with her entire home life crumbling before her eyes. She thought that'd be the end of it. It was — but not in the way she'd envisioned.
She opened PageMaker to mock up the next edition of The Lancer, Southwest's somewhat monthly newspaper. She was the editor-in-chief, a fancy title that just meant she was stuck finishing up the things the editorial staff didn't get to: copyediting stories, writing headlines, making sure the final proofs were delivered to the printer, and, on release days, lugging and dropping off stacks of newspapers to classrooms before school started. But she loved the work and enjoyed her staff — most of them, anyway.
Thinking about the newspaper's core editors — news, sports, features, opinion, and arts — pulled her mind back to Pete Fernandez. She liked him. Not like-liked, because that spark just wasn't there, but he was funny, smart, and focused when he wanted to be. He could have made a case for himself to be editor of the paper, but for whatever reason, he didn't — allowing Patty to take over, unopposed. Not a bad guy, even if he'd made stupid decisions.
The prom thing had been strange, but not all that surprising. Patty could tell that Pete had the crush of crushes on her. The mixtapes slipped into her locker, how he'd turn away when she'd catch him staring in class. The occasional, not-so-surprise run-ins between periods. He was a sweet guy, but Patty wasn't attracted to him. Didn't dream of him as she doodled in her notebook or as she listened to the tapes he made her — which were a little heavy on the Beatles and Billy Joel and thick in terms of the message he was trying to send. He was her friend, and she was sad they'd graduate and part ways before they could become closer.
"It's for the best," she said to herself as she sent the double-page interior spread to print. It was a forward-looking piece on graduation, with updates on who'd been accepted where and some quotes from notable "student leaders" about how much they'd miss the purple-and-white building that made up Southwest Miami High.
Her beeper buzzed again and Patty groaned. What the hell did Danny want? It'd been almost a month since she'd broken it off and he'd seemed more than happy to never talk to her. Another buzz. The first message was Danny's number, the next said 911. Emergency.
Patty picked up the phone next to her computer. She dialed 9 to get an open line and then Danny's home phone number, from memory. It rang once before he picked up.
"Hey."
"Hi," Patty said. "What's up? You beeped me 911?"
"Yeah, I need to talk to you," he said, his voice drowsy like he'd just woken up from a long nap. "I need to see you."
"I don't think that's a good idea. I'm busy."
"At the paper?"
Patty didn't answer.
"I can come pick you up," he said. "I have stuff to talk about. Big stuff. It's important."
She pinched the bridge of her nose and closed her eyes. Be strong.
"Look, Danny, no," she said. "I have shit to do and I haven't heard from you in weeks. You didn't even respond when I left you a voice-mail about that cop — who, I swear, has been showing up all over the place. It's creeping me out. So, yeah, I get it. We're not friends. Which is fine. I told you I needed space, but you can't have it both ways, okay?"
(Continues…)
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