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Overview
In this YA contemporary novel from bestselling author Nancy Rue, the issues of abuse and its emotional effects are explored as Bryn O'Connor struggles to find her voice while many of her one-time friends doubt she's telling the truth and her ex-boyfriend won't let go of their past.
Bryn has learned to keep her mouth shut. But when a trip to the hospital following a car accident reveals bruises and injuries inflicted by her boyfriend days and months before, her biggest secret is unwillingly unleashed. And though a restraining order is meant to keep her safe from Preston, it seems nothing can protect her from her supposed friends, who refuse to believe Preston is capable of such violence and look to punish her for what happened to him. Making Bryn wonder if finally telling the truth only made things worse.
The stress and loneliness leaves Bryn feeling crazy--especially when it seems like the leather book she picked up at the hospital is reading her thoughts. It doesn't help that her visiting grandma, Mim, is convinced surfing lessons and homemade Mexican food will somehow help Bryn regain control and focus away from the bullying messages pinging her phone. Though when Preston breaks the restraining order yet again, and a trial date looms, it's clear the only way out of the tsunami that is her life is to charge in and take control of the waves around her.
Boyfriends, Burritos & an Ocean of Trouble:
- uses a fictional setting to explore the real-life issues of abuse and quieted voices young women face
- delves into the concepts of finding your voice, overcoming difficult circumstances, and working past feelings of self-blame
- provides an inspirational message for those dealing with tough circumstances
- is the second book in the Real Life series, but can be read as a stand-alone novel
About the Author
Nancy Rue has written over 100 books for girls, is the editor of the Faithgirlz Bible, and is a popular speaker and radio guest with her expertise in tween and teen issues. She and husband, Jim, have raised a daughter of their own and now live in Tennessee.
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Boyfriends, Burritos & an Ocean of Trouble
By Nancy Rue
Zondervan
Copyright © 2010 Nancy RueAll right reserved.
ISBN: 978-0-310-71485-9
Chapter One
I didn't wish the car accident had killed me. But lying there on the table in the emergency room as that bald doctor with the tangled eyebrows shined his tiny flashlight in my eyes, I would have settled for unconscious. Just a nice coma so I wouldn't have to answer any questions. My few seconds of blackout didn't seem to count because no one had stopped interrogating me since the paramedics had arrived on the scene.The doctor-Jon Wooten, it said on his nametag-dropped the flashlight into his white-coat pocket and put his warm hands on the sides of my face. I tried not to shiver.
"So, you hit your head on impact?" he said, nodding at my throbbing forehead.
"No." I hoped what I'd learned in my drama classes would kick in as I faked a smile. "The airbag hit me. Those things are dangerous!"
"It got you right here."
He brushed his fingers along my cheek, and I winced.
"We'll clean that up and get you some ice for the swelling," he said. "It's an abrasion-it won't leave a scar."
I was so not worried about a mark on my face. What I was worried about was getting out of here before- "All right, we're going to have you change into a gown so I can examine you."
Before that.
"I'll have a nurse help you." He nodded at my father, who was standing in the corner of the curtained cubicle where he'd been asked to stay. "She's definitely had a concussion. I may want a CT scan to rule out internal injuries, but let's see if there's anything else going on first."
He motioned for Dad to follow him and then swept out.
Dad nodded, but he came to me and leaned over the table. His face was gray, his pale blue eyes wet around the edges. In the harsh hospital light, I saw lines etched in his face that weren't there when I left the house that night, as if he'd just gotten old that very minute. He had to be even skinnier now too, and the thinning place on top of his head made him seem somehow fragile. My father never showed much emotion except when he had to put a young dog to sleep. The way he was looking at me, I could have been a terminal puppy.
He was a veterinarian, but a doctor's a doctor. He couldn't be missing the fact that my heart was slamming at my chest and taking my breath away. "Bryn, this is serious," he said. "Don't downplay it-tell them everything, you hear?"
His Virginia-soft accent didn't usually affect me that much. Probably because he didn't actually talk to me that much. But right now it was doing me in. I swallowed back the sob that threatened to burst from my chest. At least he wasn't asking me what I'd been doing in a car alone with Preston.
"Brynnie?" he said.
"Okay," I said. "But I'm really not hurt."
Except for the pain in my stomach and the ache in my arm and the throbbing in my head, that was the truth.
As soon as he disappeared through the curtain, panic grabbed at my insides and climbed all the way up my throat and gagged me. I plastered my hand over my mouth and prayed I wouldn't throw up. Then I prayed that Dr. Wooten would learn about a sudden outbreak of the plague in Virginia Beach and forget about me, and Dad and I could go home and pretend to forget this whole thing happened.
But there was as much a chance of that as there was that once I was clad in a flimsy gown, that doctor wasn't going to see what was under it. I wasn't so worried about tonight's injuries. Those bruises wouldn't rise to the surface until at least tomorrow.
It was Wednesday's evidence I was worried about. I couldn't let him see that. Not with Dad standing there. At least my mother wasn't here. At least there was that.
A nurse in turquoise scrubs and a messy ponytail slipped in through the curtain, a gown and a sheet over her arm. She looked at me like I was one of Dad's patients, recently brought in from a storm drain.
"Hey, girlfriend," she said. "I'm Cindi. How you doin'?"
"I'd be better if I could just go home," I said. "I bet you have people way sicker than me to take care of."
"Nope. You lucked out tonight."
She put her hand on my shoulder, and I tried not to cringe.
"I'm going to need you to take everything off and put on this precious gown." She gave me a winky smile. "It's not a good look for anybody, but it's all we've got."
If she was trying to get me to relax, it wasn't working. My mouth dried up, and I could feel my hands oozing sweat.
"Once you get that on you can lie back and I'll cover you with the sheet." She tilted her head at me. "Are you cold?"
I was, even in my pink sweater, even though it was June and everybody else at the party had been in tank tops. It was pointless to pretend I wasn't shivering now. I could almost feel my lips turning blue.
"I'm going to go get you a blanket," she said. "If you even start to feel dizzy, lie down and I'll help you get undressed when I come back."
When she left I fought back more panic. Jesus, what do I do?
I wasn't swearing. I was really asking Jesus, just like I'd been doing for the last three months. I hadn't gotten any answers. I would have given up a leading role for one right now-because if there was any way out of this beyond a miracle, I wasn't seeing it.
I pulled the thread-thin blue gown to my face and breathed in the hospital smell and begged Jesus to make me disappear. Outside the cubicle, sneakers squealed past on the linoleum. I could either do it now or do it ten minutes from now or two hours from now. But they were going to make me do it, and the longer I put it off, the more suspicious they were all going to be.
I pushed the gown from my face. Okay-do it fast-like it's no big deal. Make up a story about the bruises. Promise to be more careful with my bird-boned, five-foot-one self in the future.
I couldn't come up with anything else.
I pulled off the sweater, the one Preston said back in the beginning made me look delicious, and yanked the deeper shade of pink long-sleeved tee over my head. The pain seared through me like I was being sliced with a bread knife, but I was now beyond crying. Fear steals your tears-I'd learned that. Still, I didn't dare look at myself as I fed my arms gingerly through the holes in the gown.
Tying the thing in the back was almost not worth the agony involved, but it might keep the doctor from seeing that part. Not that he would need to. The black-and-purple handprint around my bicep told enough of a story by itself. I was going to have to think of a better one, and tell it with a sheepish smile. Assure them it would never happen again.
Please, Jesus-don't let it ever happen again.
Things were tangling in my head and I couldn't allow it. I put all my focus on wriggling out of the rest of my clothes and tucking the gown tightly around my legs and draping my hair over my shoulders. Maybe they'd believe some lame story because I was blonde. I was about to pull the sheet up to my neck when Nurse Cindi slid the curtains apart, already talking.
"Are we set?" she said.
Her lips stopped moving in mid-word. Even while I was retreating behind the sheet I caught the flicker that went through her eyes. It was gone almost before it was there, a trick they must teach in nursing school. But it had lingered long enough for me to know she knew.
Any story I came up with was going to be perfectly useless. I buried my face in my knees.
"I'll be right back," she practically whispered. "No worries, girlfriend. We'll take care of this."
No. Jesus, please don't let them "take care of it." You take care of it. Make it go away.
He didn't. Instead, the curtain parted again and I groped for my smile and the strands of my story. Everything on Dr. Wooten's face came to a suspicious point. Nurse Cindi wasn't even trying to hide the pity on hers.
"Where's my dad?" I said.
"Filling out some paperwork," he said.
I let go of a ragged breath that dragged through my ribs. Good. I didn't want him here for this.
Without a word, Dr. Wooten pulled back the sheet and examined my arms with only his eyes. I could feel him taking in the bruises-some of them pale blue and red, some dark purple, a few a sickening yellowish green. Cindi watched him, watched me, looked at him again. A whole conversation went on while nobody said a word. I had to stop it.
"Those are old bruises," I said.
"I know," he said.
"I got them playing football."
"I'm going to have you lie back for me."
"Seriously. I'm a double linebacker."
"There's no such thing as a double linebacker, Bryn."
"Single?"
Doctor Wooten pressed his hands on my abdomen and that's when I lost it all-my smile, my loser attempt at a story, my hope. The sucker-punch pain in my stomach throbbed worse now than it had when it first happened. I squeezed the sides of the table and cried without making a sound.
"This one is new," he said. "Were you wearing a seatbelt?"
I shook my head and waited for the lecture. The doctor only frowned and pulled the sheet back up to my chest. Nurse Cindi smoothed and tucked and bit at her lip.
He rolled a stool close and sat looking at me long and hard. I should have seen it before: he had eyes you didn't lie to, even if you thought your life depended on it.
"Let's talk about how this happened," he said, "without the football scenario."
He put his hands on my neck and felt around, his eyes never leaving mine alone. He wouldn't find anything there. It never happened in a place I couldn't keep covered up. I didn't own any turtlenecks.
It was a random thought to have at that moment, but my mind was trying to leave my body. This doctor with the bald head and the intense brows and the eyes that saw everything must have seen that too, because he said, "Who did this to you, Bryn?"
It was an accident," I said. My voice was so thin I could hardly hear it.
"Was it an accident every time?" "He didn't plan it. He just got mad and it happened."
"And he hit you in the stomach."
I started to shake my head, but he went on. "You have a large hematoma that's rising even as we're looking at it. Probably a broken blood vessel in your abdominal wall, which could be serious. If you weren't wearing a seatbelt-"
"Maybe I was-"
"Bryn. Who did this?"
His voice had gone soft around the edges. I closed my eyes and felt the tears
slither into my ears.
"I'm sorry this has happened to you," he said. "We don't want it to happen again, so you need to tell us who's been hurting you."
"I can't." I opened my eyes and let them plead for me. "I'll make it stop, I promise."
"If you could have stopped it you would have." His voice got firmer. "This is not your fault, Bryn."
"Yes, it is. Please-I'll take care of it."
He folded his arms and looked at me so sadly I thought for a minute he was going to let me.
"Your dad's Doctor Christopher," he said.
"He's a vet," I said.
"Does he have his own practice?"
"It's next door to our house." I didn't know where we were going with this, but at least it was away from my beat-up body.
"Is he under a lot of stress?"
"My dad?" I would have laughed if I hadn't been crying. My father was more laid back than Winnie the Pooh.
"Does your mom live with you?"
"Yes, sir, but she's away on a trip." Thank goodness.
"How long has she been gone?"
"Two weeks. She won't be back 'til the end of July."
I closed my eyes again. Suddenly I was so tired I could have faded away-if he hadn't said what he said next.
"I don't have a choice, Bryn. You're only fifteen. I have to report this."
My eyes sprang open.
"You're the victim of assault."
I tried to sit up, but I flopped back like a helpless fish. "He didn't assault me." I said. "He just-"
He just what? Was I going to tell them his eyes had gone wild and the veins in his neck bulged like purple cords and I knew he couldn't stop himself? That I knew it was going to be worse than last time because it always was?
Dr. Wooten stood up. "I'm going to send you down for a CT scan so we can be sure of what's happening with your belly. That will give you some time to think it over." He brushed my hand with his fingertips, like he knew that was the only place on me that didn't hurt. "I want you to know there's nothing to be afraid of, for you or your dad. He can get help-"
In spite of the breath-stealing pain, I sat right up on the table this time.
"My dad?" I said. "You think my dad did this?"
"No matter what you feel you did to deserve it, it's child abuse."
"You don't understand!" I grabbed for his wrist and caught a handful of his coat in my fingers. "My dad would never do this."
"Then who was it, Bryn? Because if you don't tell us, the police are going to assume it was him."
"The police?" I let go of his sleeve and shoved my hands into my hair. And then I let go of the words that were going to change my life forever and ever.
"It wasn't my father," I said. "It was my boyfriend."
Chapter Two
For the next two hours, I tried to pretend it was all happening to someone else. I was usually good at pretending, but I couldn't quite pull it off that night. Everyone kept saying my name, like they didn't want me to think I was just another victim of abuse to them.I was "Bryn" to the technician who did the CT scan, the woman who came in and took pictures of all my bruises for the hospital records, and of course Cindi, who kept telling me everything was going to be all right even though nothing was ever going to be all right again.
But to my father I was "Brynnie." He kept saying it from the minute Cindi brought him in, even when she stayed in my cubicle as if she'd been told to keep an eye on him.
He came straight over to the table, so I just pulled back the sheet. Everybody that worked at that hospital had already looked at my shame. Why shouldn't he?
He whispered "Brynnie" as he studied me. His face was no longer ash-colored. He and I were both blushers, and he was now as red as he'd been pale before. I couldn't tell if it was from anger. I'd never seen my father mad until now.
"Brynnie," he said again. "Preston did this?"
If he'd sounded the tiniest bit like he didn't believe me, I would have said no. But it was more like a statement than a question, as if he didn't doubt my word for a minute. That broke my heart right in half.
"Did he?"
"Yes, sir," I said. "I'm sorry-"
"We're pressing charges."
(Continues...)
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