This book was written between the years of 2019-2020. I was in an toxic relationship and in that relationship there were many high highs and low lows. It was either butterflies or blues and never an in between. These poems are in chronological order so they tell a story. I wasn't in a healthy place and wasn't in a healthy relationship. These poems are a brutally honest reflection of love, lust, sadness, depression, hatred, self awareness, loss, light, endings, beginnings, and I didn't hold back or muffle my feelings. I was young and had so much yet to learn. I lost myself in something that I thought was love, but in losing myself I found myself. During the years this book was written I spent my first time ever in a psychiatric hospital and became aware of the fact that I was experiencing DID. Eighteen was a rough age to be, but my experience shaped who I am today at age twenty one. I wouldn't take back the relationship I was in or the choices I made. It made me who I am. I'm forever grateful for what I learned and who I've become. This book is my heart, my soul, my love, my heartbreak, and a part of my identity. I hope you enjoy it and if you find these poems relatable, take a deeper look at to why.
