"End Of The Circle

by Namref H. Tims

Overview

Warning: There is a lot of PAIN in this book. This was first pointed out to me many years ago by a "Vanity" publisher. Reflecting on this today, I realize that he was absolutely correct.
Yet there is also a bit of humor within these pages.
But more importantly, what was my motivation for writing this novel?
Initially, I began this novel as an extension of a diary I kept when I suffered with "Night Terror" sleep disorder. However, the sleep disorder was closely associated with my journey to find my biological father. My father had been hospitalized for mental illness for over half his life. When I went to visit my father in a state hospital, it had been 21 years since I last saw him.
My father died of a heart attack, six months after my visit. I was the last person of my family and the siblings of his own immediate family to visit him. About two years after my father's death, I began to suffer with "Night Terror" sleep disorder. This lasted for five years. The sleep disorder had a devastating impact on my life. At one point, I did not feel that I would survive it --I felt certain a nervous breakdown was eminent. I kept the diary to keep my thoughts as objective as possible. I sought counseling at the VA hospital. I had two sessions with a white female Ph.d psychologist named Susan (Geometric figure-- her last name is synonymous with a well-known geometric figure). For some reason after my second session, Susan transferred me to a colleague-- a white male with a master's degree in either Sociology or Psychology. I inquired about the change. He told me "off the record", that Susan had made some very uncomplimentary statements about me. He would not give me specifics of what she said-- apparently, he did not agree with Susan--At least that was the impression.
Through the Freedom of Information Act, I got a copy of the comments of our two sessions. What immediately stood out was this: Susan stated I had a "dependent personality". However, there was nothing in the comments to support how she came to this conclusion. I recalled the last session: I asked Susan whether she believed in God. Somehow Susan seemed a bit perturbed with this question. Yet she did calmly answer: Very well then, I believe in a "force: She did not elaborate further.
So, I wondered whether Susan believed I was "dependent" on God-- Or perhaps was Susan also including herself, in view of the fact, I was coming to her for therapy and counseling-- thereby dependent on her as well.

Susan's statement to me which, seemed unwarranted and perhaps even racist, did actually make me reflect. We as humans, are all to some degree, dependent on each other.

One of the main characters in my novel is a female, white PhD psychologist. In a sense she is the anti- Susan. She actually gives a damn about her patients. I do not know where the "real" Susan is today-- alive or dead. If alive, she probably does not even recall me as one of her patients.

Susan's statement prompted me to observe: We as humans, are all to some degree dependent on each other. Some people more so than others. Globally, The U.S. has world debt that exceeds trillions of dollars. In some sense or another, we as humans are connected in our destinies. What do they tell doctors in medical school? "Do no harm"?

Teachers, doctors, Ph.D. psychologists can do a lot of good-- they can also do a lot of harm.

Product Details

BN ID:	2940165807664
Publisher:	Namref H. Tims
Publication date:	02/24/2022
Sold by:	Smashwords
Format:	eBook
File size:	298 KB
Age Range:	18 Years

About the Author

Namref H. Tims email : [e-mail]

Who am I?
.
A creative spirit.

Depends on your perspective.

For one I was a sorry " S.O.B,"

Another compared me to Jesus.

One called me "Cretin" ( Female National Merit Semi- Finalist)

Another beheld "pure genius". ( Different Female National Merit Semi-Finalist)

I am athletic yet clumsy.

Am sensitive yet at times mindless.

Truth : I am all that is enlisted .

Have a degree in Accounting, although I never worked a day as one. I served in the US Army Security Agency for four years as a Morse Code Interceptor. I have worked for the U.S. Postal Service and also a major refinery.

Met and verbally sparred with Muhammad Ali.

Competed in the 100 yard dash against the co-holder of the world record. Ran the 40 yard dash in 4 seconds flat.

Competed for a short while in world long drive competition. When I saw the disparity of pay between Open division and Senior Division ( $135,000 for first place Open division and $9800 Senior Div.) I retired even though I was hitting balls on the driving range (with limited flight golf balls) farther than the best in the world in my age group.

Sent an email to harass Marilyn vos Savant that my IQ was higher than hers. In her column she tells you : " Use the highest score ". My highest score was 235. For the story on that you will have to read my upcoming book, "Extraordinary Performances In Sports And LIfe-- The Numbers That Influence Them".

In 1972 I experimented and achieved success with Telekinesis. Later In 1972 I abandoned pursuit of these abilities.

In 2014 I resumed experimenting with paranormal abilities. Mainly because, I read about the James Randi org, which offered a 1 million dollar prize to someone who could demonstrate these abilities exist.

As of 2015 this prize no longer exists.

Sporadically now I practice paranormal abilities, since there is no longer a substantial prize incentive. My objective : If I can use them to heal people, I will put them to great service.

I have beaten and drawn top rated computer chess programs at blitz chess-- Famed Grand Master Lev Alburt told me this was IMPOSSIBLE for an amateur player of less strength than a super GM rated 2650 Elo.

World Infamous "Woe- Class" Psychic Maria Duval told me : " You Are Sent By The Supreme Forces Of The Universe..."

I write mostly for fulfillment not edification.
Most writers don't make much money. This so far, holds true for me.