Table of Contents
Introduction: Amber Epps 7
Chapter 1 Life
Found Memories #1 and #2 / Fly 19
Scratch Poets / Malakki 21
Doing Dirt / Oscar 23
My Very Young Years/Khalifa 24
My Life / Shawn 29
Life / Faruq 31
See Me / Khalifa 34
A Bullet and a Prayer / Malakki 39
A Gangsta and a Gentleman / Faruq 41
Karma / Faruq 43
What I Lost / Khalifa 45
Chapter 2 Rupture
Losses / Khalifa 51
Space / Khalifa 54
From the Bottomless / Malakki 56
Fit to Kill: A Reactionary Existence (Part I) / Malakki 60
Why Did They Give Up on Me? / Oscar 70
The Worst Day of My Life / Fly 72
Living Grave / Malakki 76
What is it Like to Get a Life Sentence? / Shawn 79
Police / Khalifa 82
Pull it Back / Malakki 83
Chapter 3 Prison Life
I'll Never Swallow this Pill / Oscar 89
Fare Enough / Malakki 91
In a Cell / Malakki 95
The Distinguisher Between Truth and Falsehood / Faruq 101
Teaching for the University / Faruq 103
Lost and Gain / faruq 106
Fit to Kill: A Reactionary Existence (Part II) / Malakki 114
The Visit / Oscar 119
The Resolution / Khalifa 120
Lock Up My Body Not My Mind / Oscar 121
Chapter 4 Restoration
Can U Stand? / Oscar 125
Playing Cards with Men in Cages / Oscar 126
Helping Inmates / Shawn 132
Trying Something Different / Fly 133
The Talking Game / Khalifa 135
No Room for Games (with enclosed essay) / Khalifa 138
Consider the Fist / Malakki 143
Talking about Race / Fly 146
How Policing Can Be Better in the Black Community / Shawn 147
Human Relations (A Sermon) / Khalifa 148
The Journey to Ourselves / Malakki 151
A Letter to My Sisters / Khalifa 155
Afterword: List Day 159
About the Writers and Editors 167