Never Leave Your Dead: A True Story of War Trauma, Murder, and Madness

by Diane Cameron

Overview

In March of 1953, Donald Watkins, a former Marine who served in China during the Japanese invasion of 1937, murdered his wife and mother-in-law. After serving twenty-two years in Farview State Hospital for the Criminally Insane, he was released and eventually married again. A decade later, Donald may or may not have been the cause of his second wife's death, as well.

Author Diane Cameron uncovers the true story of her stepfather, Donald Watkins. Was he a traumatized veteran? A victim of abuse in the mental-health system? Was he a criminal? Mentally ill? Or just eccentric?

As she unravels this mystery, Cameron finds healing and understanding with her own struggles and history of family abuse. She discovers an unlikely collection of role models in the community of the China Marines, as they were known. Together, they help put the pieces of shared war experience in perspective and resolve the more complex issue of understanding trauma itself.

With insights drawn from diverse experts such as Thomas Szasz and Bessel van der Kolk, Cameron unlocks the connection between the experience of veterans of past wars and those who deal with the war trauma today.

Diane Cameron is an award-winning columnist. An excerpt from Never Leave Your Dead was first published in the Bellevue Literary Review and was nominated for a 2006 Pushcart Prize.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781942094173
Publisher:	Central Recovery Press, LLC
Publication date:	05/16/2016
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
Pages:	176
File size:	14 MB
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About the Author

Diane Cameron is an award-winning columnist whose topics include popular culture and social perspective. Her work has appeared in the Atlanta Journal-Constitution, the Chicago Tribune,
Christian Science Monitor, the Baltimore Sun, Philadelphia Inquirer, San Francisco Chronicle, and the Albany Times Union. Her column, “The Common Writer,” in the Altamont Enterprise was awarded first place for Best Column from the New York Press Association in April of 2007. An excerpt from Never Leave Your Dead was first published in the Bellevue Literary Review and was nominated for a 2006 Pushcart Prize.

Table of Contents

Foreword William P. Nash xi

Preface xiii

Prologue: The Murder-March 7,1953 1

Chapter 1 My Mother's Donald 5

Chapter 2 Getting to Know Donald 15

Chapter 3 Out of Order 23

Chapter 4 For God and Country 27

Chapter 5 Missing History: Donald's Past Has a Past 45

Chapter 6 Nuts for the Nation: St. Elizabeths Hospital 53

Chapter 7 Semper Fi: There's No Purple Heart for Falling Apart 65

Chapter 8 They Brought Home More Than Souvenirs 83

Chapter 9 When My Mother Told Me 89

Chapter 10 Cold Storage: Farview State Hospital 99

Chapter 11 Unveiling the Myth of Thomas Szasz 109

Chapter 12 Getting Help and Getting Home Again 121

Chapter 13 Donald Crosses the Line 135

Chapter 14 There Are So Many Donalds 145

Chapter 15 Still Crazy After All These Years 157

Chapter 16 Iambic Pentameter and the Meter of War 165

Chapter 17 Never Leave Your Dead 173

Acknowledgments and Thanks 177

The Symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder 179

Resources for Veterans and their Families and Friends 181

Editorial Reviews

Leatherneck Magazine review: "Cameron’s book is both a swan song to her misunderstood Marine stepfather and a vivid testimonial on the varying and erratic symptoms of PTSD. She includes a short listing of the symptoms of PTSD and a suggested list of resources for veterans and their families in the hope of helping others. This enthralling little book reads like a well-conceived detective novel. Diane Cameron has produced an interesting and thought-provoking tale of war trauma, murder and madness but the unimaginable and tragic tale of Donald Watkins is told with the greatest care and heartfelt compassion."—Robert B. Loring

PsychCentral Magazine review: "Full of the pain of war and horror of our history with mental illness, Never Leave Your Dead is by no means an easy read. And yet Cameron’s approach fully embraces the sentiment of the title, a central ethos of the Marine Corps. She could have easily left Watkins’ story untold, justified by the murder of two innocent women and her own complicated relationship to him. Instead, she asks us to consider Watkins’ life and the implications of his experiences in the military and afterward. She encourages us to meditate on the effects of war and how we care for — or more often don’t — those who come home after witnessing real horrors. And, using her own struggles, she draws meaningful connections between the pain of trauma and the pain of veterans’ trauma, not creating an unreachable other, but instead unifying them and us in our common humanity."—Julie Pratt

“It is a privilege to meet Diane Cameron through this book. She has made her own hero’s journey and brought us back this boon. No sentimentality here!"—Jonathan Shay, MD, PhD, author of Achilles in Vietnam and Odysseus in America

“Diane Cameron’s Never Leave Your Dead, unfolding like a good psychological mystery, is at once heartfelt and unillusioned. It asks the hard questions and considers the harrowing evidence about violence and its impacts on the soul, but then looks to move past judgment. Here are images and perspectives that will not be forgotten, however much the reader hopes they might. To understand the power of forgiveness we need to understand what things need to be forgiven. Cameron instructs us in both.”—Sven Birkerts, author of The Gutenberg Elegies and The Art of the Memoir

“Wars never end for their survivors. Despite new diagnostic language and a culture at times sympathetic, military trauma all too often devastates the lives of our veterans and those who love them long after armistice. With this poignant, timely, and unforgettable memoir of her own effort to comprehend, Diane Cameron issues a powerful reminder that mental trauma is an intricate, three-dimensional problem—one that resists easy judgments and defies simple answers. Grounded in history, informed by psychiatry, and written with a rare blend of compassion and moral urgency, this is a powerful meditation on love, war, and our humanity. As our young men and women continue to return from Iraq and Afghanistan, may their families—and our national policy makers—read this important book and ponder its many valuable insights.”—Dr. Brian Matthew Jordan, author of Marching Home: Union Veterans and Their Unending Civil War

“Diane Cameron is a teacher and historian who puts one Marine’s life into the context of historical events—many which we have forgotten. She frames that man's trauma and that of many of the men we send to war. Part memoir, part history lesson, and part psychological mystery, Diane’s book educates all of us about the complexity of a single life, and she helps us to understand and honor our warriors, past and present. As a clinician who worked with traumatized veterans at the VA for many years, I am moved by the compassion in Diane’s understanding of what it means to be a Marine, and how the trauma of war can mold one’s life forever. This is a compelling story and a well-researched history lesson that remains relevant today.”—Susan Griffiths, RN, MS, Clinical Nurse Specialist in Psychiatric Nursing

"Diane Cameron’s book is simply a tour-de-force—with the page-turning power of a world-class thriller. It is the story of one family member’s attempt to create a coherent narrative out of the mind-numbing shards of war trauma. Cameron is a fierce detective—deeply well-informed—and every page of her determined inquiry moves us closer to a nuanced understanding of the effects of trauma on us all. The astonished reader of this book accompanies Cameron on her journey through a fog of cultural and clinical denial and superstition—and finally arrives with her at some profound and healing truths. I simply could not put this book down."—Stephen Cope, Senior Scholar-in-Residence at Kripalu Center for Yoga and Health and best-selling author of The Great Work of Your Life and Yoga and the Quest for the True Self

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