Questions [ To theists in general, to Christians in particular ]

by Clear Conscience

Overview

By nature I'm an innovative (got an invention award while in high school) and curious person, with a Christian family background.
My grandfather was a general secretary of a YMCA half a century ago, my parents also somewhat believes in the existence of "God". With that kind of influence I want to know the details of this so called "God", I have a lot of friends who also believe in God or Gods, and yet no one seems to know what I want to know about Him, if He ever exists.

I've been searching for decades without a clear answer. Often times there were Mormons, Christians and Jehovah's Witnesses came knocking on my door on Saturday mornings, I would invite them in and discuss with them about religions, ask them my questions, but none of them could offer me all the answers. Time after time I was disappointed, and yet I still want to know the answers, so I decided to write down all my major questions and complied a 36-question pamphlet, every time someone knocks on my door again, I can hand him this pamphlet and say : "If you can answer ALL my questions in this pamphlet, come back and let's discuss, otherwise, don't waste your time and mine !".

Incredibly, no one got it ever came back, I was happy and disappointed at the same time. I was happy because with the help of this pamphlet I didn't have to repeat my questions and waste time on someone who didn't know what he was talking about, and yet I was disappointed because there is still no one who can answer all my questions. To be frank, I was not only disappointed, but a bit angry, because if they didn't know the answers to these questions, it meant they, themselves, were in doubt, in an unclear-state-of-mind stage, how can they spread their doubts to other people, how can they be sure what they were spreading was the RIGHT IDEA ?!

All my writing experiences (except a few homeworks in school) are in computer software, it's a very detailed logical process, there might be some similarities between writing a program and writing an article like this, you can think of a computer software as an article that becomes live when you run it in a computer, it needs to be logical and error free, otherwise the programs would go wrong.

This is an article of frustration of many years of searching in vain, something so pervasive and yet so intangible, believers are so fervent about, but in which I can not find a solid foundation to build my belief
on ! Am I being unreasonable ? Or am I too stupid to understand what so many other people can comprehend ? With an IQ of above 120, I don't think my intelligence is below normal, but why can't I understand it,
am I lacking the "God" gene ? That's the question I'm trying to find an answer to !

I sent it to some publishers, they said they don't publish things like this, so I sent it to American Atheists, they said it's more suited for believers. I am still wondering if it's worth publishing, but I'll give it a try.

Product Details

BN ID:	2940011813146
Publisher:	Clear Conscience
Publication date:	10/06/2010
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
File size:	21 KB