Table of Contents
Publisher's Preface xi
Preface xv
Introduction Alfred Gottschalk xxi
Prologue 1
Survivor of the First Degree 3
Hometown 17
Tale of a Torah Scroll 19
My Affair with Rheda 37
Jüdischer Lehrer: Germany, 1936-1939 53
Crystal Night 69
Hannover Happening 71
A Delayed Kaddish 81
Concentration Camp 85
A Revelation in Bergen-Belsen 87
The Shame of Bergen-Belsen 91
The Great Novel About Bergen-Belsen 95
An Uvechein and a Dayeinu for Bergen-Belsen 101
Pilgrimage to Bergen-Belsen 105
Retraining for Life 111
The Lost Transport 113
Search for Meaning 159
Unveiling a Synagogue Monument in Germany 161
The Crack in the Dam 179
Why I Did Not Leave Nazi Germany While There Was Still Time 189
"I Alone Have Escaped to Tell You" 201
Contending with Guilt 217
Epilogue 233
A Dutch Couple 235
Glossary of Hebrew, German, and Yiddish Terms 257
Index 263
