Table of Contents
Family Tree vi
Author's Note vii
Prologue ix
1 Pyotr, the Fledgling Seagull 1
2 Upheavals and Loss 13
3 An Unbearable Farewell 21
4 Guilt and the Cruellest Loss 29
5 A Difficult Journey 39
6 Pyotr Chooses Music 51
7 Tchaikovsky, Musk Teacher 63
8 The Ladies' Man 71
9 A Most Unlikely Affair 79
10 A Tragic Love 89
11 The Lake of the Swans 97
12 Unexpected Inspiration 107
13 Bending the Rules 115
14 Misery and Defiance 123
15 Swan Lake - and Failure 131
16 In Love - and Alone 139
17 A Woman Enters His Life 145
18 'She Is Repulsive to Me' 157
19 Fate 169
20 'It Stinks to the Ear' 179
21 A Sort of Freedom 189
22 The Boulevardier 197
23 An Impenetrable Secret 205
24 A Family Crisis 213
25 A Benefactor Bids 'Adieu' 221
26 On Tour and Unhappy 229
27 A Musical 'Adieu'? 237
Postscript 242
Afterword 246
Timeline 260
Select Bibliography 264
References 266
Index 270