Table of Contents
Foreword ix
Prologue xi
Chapter 1 A Beautiful Mess, and Near Death by Adderall 1
Chapter 2 Threats, Memories, and Car Trauma 17
Chapter 3 Putting the Pieces Back Together 37
Chapter 4 A Dentist, a Dad, and a Convertible 53
Chapter 5 The Birth of Pills 67
Chapter 6 The Beast Cocaine, and a New Love 83
Chapter 7 Alcohol, and a Psychiatric Diagnosis 109
Chapter 8 Moms Who Die 133
Chapter 9 OxyContin, and Coming Home to Pills … Again 161
Chapter 10 Stephanie and Joani 177
Chapter 11 Doctor Shopping 189
Chapter 12 Needles for All 215
Chapter 13 Two Parents, Two Sons, Two Illnesses 239
Chapter 14 Making Friends in the Bible Belt 263
Chapter 15 The One Who Got Away, and a Breakthrough 281
Chapter 16 Relapse, Fear, and a Long, Strange Night 295
Epilogue 311
Acknowledgments 313
Alcohol and Drug Treatment Facilities: A Selected List 317
Resources 319
About the Author 321