Table of Contents
Acknowledgments 13
Introduction "Writing the Disaster in Tongues: Marianna Kiyanovska's Voices of Babyn Yar" Polina Barskova 15
Preface. "Voices from the Edge: Translation, Memory, and Mourning" Oksana Maksymchuk Max Rosochinsky 25
The Voices of Babyn Yar
Eyes filled with tears so dense they won't flow 37
Only now can I speak of this 39
I hold a bullet under my tongue 43
I would collapse in the street right here 45
Hundreds of streets could fill this vastness 47
I'm nearing, nearing, near 49
The mundane has vanished 51
I won't save a soul 53
Africa Africa 55
I fed my cat with saliva 59
Happiness is present and eternal 61
If I survive I'll simply be a tato 63
At the train station two found rest 65
I really don't know if I'm afraid 67
Rebbe Leivi Yitzhak Shneyerson 69
I'm here I'm he I get up off my knees 71
This war-so long I nearly grew up 73
These last parting moments should they be forgotten 75
There was terror yet 77
Tears are not a solace 79
In order to bear witness I need not survive 81
This yar is like the world 83
Jews with suitcases large awkward bags 85
The future will hold me no more tonight in the twilight 87
To the yar call those with guns 89
And yet 1 will utter it 91
The window's gaping open, glass panes gone 93
In the room there hung 95
I don't know if it's possible to cry 101
Achingly carefully 103
My bedridden mother begged me 105
Throat felt terribly sore today 107
I'll lie just as I fell 109
These streets lie in ruins 111
Rebbe taught nobody's immortal 113
World has started to stink 115
Sun-drenched days under occupation 117
This morning I studied the mirror 119
Midnight coughing so hard it makes the walls shake 121
I'm putting together a collection in these final weeks 123
I tripped and fell Abraham said 127
There may be hope yet 129
Now all of this, I say, let it be over 133
Once I danced was a dancer in a ballet maybe 135
Sweet-tasting poison slow-flowing 137
We're like fish, pike and perch 139
Our neighbors came by they say we must stay together 141
What has changed: there are rats in abundance 143
Weeping I walk turning around looking back I weep 145
The before means that tato is home with a smile on his face 147
It seems to me I'm deafeningly silent 149
Dog at the door, I didn't know how to speak to it 151
I thought it surely couldn't get any worse 153
All happening at once: the bullets and the apples 155
This ultimate naming of things that I now attempt 157
We used to go fishing, me and the boys 159
We shall not make history we are the nobodies 163
Tears turn into crystalline grus 165
Old age creeps up when I read the news 167
My clothing fits loosely haven't had any food for days 171
We used to come here to build a bonfire 173
Up to this day I lived like anyone 175
This is the yar where Hans does his work 177
This is the poem with which I scream 179
Notes 183