In a toxic world of lust, lies, and elegant hotels, London’s high-class escorts cater to the carnal appetites of powerful men. It’s a game Stella knows how to play, one that allows her to escape the nightmares of her past. The rules are simple: always leave your client satisfied, don’t get involved, and never disclose your real name. But when a fellow call girl is murdered, the game changes completely. And there’s only one rule—survival.
Once a respected professional, Stella knows how easily men can get away with murder—especially when the victim is a prostitute. Determined to get to the truth, she finds herself sucked into a deadly conflict with some of the world’s most powerful men. But while they may consider themselves above the law, there’s one secret every escort knows: no man is truly untouchable.
In a toxic world of lust, lies, and elegant hotels, London’s high-class escorts cater to the carnal appetites of powerful men. It’s a game Stella knows how to play, one that allows her to escape the nightmares of her past. The rules are simple: always leave your client satisfied, don’t get involved, and never disclose your real name. But when a fellow call girl is murdered, the game changes completely. And there’s only one rule—survival.
Once a respected professional, Stella knows how easily men can get away with murder—especially when the victim is a prostitute. Determined to get to the truth, she finds herself sucked into a deadly conflict with some of the world’s most powerful men. But while they may consider themselves above the law, there’s one secret every escort knows: no man is truly untouchable.
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Overview
In a toxic world of lust, lies, and elegant hotels, London’s high-class escorts cater to the carnal appetites of powerful men. It’s a game Stella knows how to play, one that allows her to escape the nightmares of her past. The rules are simple: always leave your client satisfied, don’t get involved, and never disclose your real name. But when a fellow call girl is murdered, the game changes completely. And there’s only one rule—survival.
Once a respected professional, Stella knows how easily men can get away with murder—especially when the victim is a prostitute. Determined to get to the truth, she finds herself sucked into a deadly conflict with some of the world’s most powerful men. But while they may consider themselves above the law, there’s one secret every escort knows: no man is truly untouchable.
Product Details
| ISBN-13: | 9780425281130 |
|---|---|
| Publisher: | Penguin Publishing Group |
| Publication date: | 10/06/2015 |
| Pages: | 336 |
| Sales rank: | 283,698 |
| Product dimensions: | 5.40(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.00(d) |
| Age Range: | 18 Years |
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
PRAISE FOR UNTOUCHABLE
TITLE PAGE
COPYRIGHT
DEDICATION
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER NINETEEN
CHAPTER TWENTY
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
CHAPTER THIRTY
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
CHAPTER FORTY
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
CHAPTER FIFTY
PROLOGUE
So, Grace,” he says. “Here we are.”
The temperature in the room drops several degrees. The breath catches in my throat and I swallow hard.
He knows my name.
He knows my fucking name.
“Why are you here?” I ask, struggling to keep any trace of fear from my voice. “What do you want?”
He smiles, finally, but it has no warmth in it. “I came to deliver something, Grace.” His tongue sliding over my name, caressing it.
“What?”
He raises his hand, and I flinch, but he strokes my cheek.
“A message from Michael.”
The hand drifts lower to my neck. He stares deep into my eyes, his features giving nothing away as his grip around me tightens, his fingers digging into my skin while his thumb traces the line of my throat. At the base, in the hollow where it joins my chest, he presses down. Not enough to stop my breathing. Just hard enough to make me very afraid indeed.
My pulse starts to sing in my head, and all I can feel is the constriction in my throat, this man’s breath on my cheek as he leans in and whispers three words in my ear. Three words like punches, like a kick to the guts.
“Michael says hello.”
ONE
THREE YEARS EARLIER
You expect more the first time you turn a trick. You hear about women who throw up the moment the client walks out the door. Some resort to hysterics, or the bottle. Others are overcome with remorse, resolving never to do it again.
In my case, nothing. He came. He came—eventually. And then he left.
Sliding the lock behind him, I felt no more than a vague sensation of having lost my virginity all over again. I walked into the bathroom and examined my face in the mirror above the sink. Searching, as after fumbled, hasty, anticlimactic sex at fifteen, for clues to what had changed.
Not much, it seemed. Same sleek dark hair, though underneath eyes more weary two decades on. The hint of a wrinkle I allowed to elude my focus, this not being the time for self-doubt.
So that’s that, I told my reflection. You’ve sold yourself for money. You’re a whore, Grace Thomas, a prostitute, a hooker, a harlot, a working girl.
I released myself from my own gaze, feeling slightly numb and slightly elated. I’d crossed the line and there was no going back.
Once a tart, always a tart. Another thing I’d never live down.
TWO
MONDAY, 19 JANUARY
Forget violent clients or venereal disease, the true scourge of working girls is tax returns—at least for those of us who bother to file one. How to describe your business, for instance? The get-out clause on every independent escort’s website—being paid purely for “time and companionship”—won’t wash with the Inland Revenue.
I opt for my standard evasion: personal therapist—vague enough to obscure the real source of my earnings, truthful enough to pass muster should anyone dig deeper. Grabbing my calculator and diary, I tot up my appointments. Three hundred and thirty-six hours at an average of £250 per hour gives me an income last year of . . . blimey . . . a gratifying £84K.
That’s before expenses, of course. I tap my pen against my teeth, trying to remember what I can claim for. Condoms and lube, certainly. Cost of website and updating photographs, yes. Taxi fares—probably.
But stockings? Clothing? Makeup? Brazilians? Vibrators? Batteries?
And how much for working from home? Assess how many rooms you use for business, suggests one website, and for what proportion of the day. Hmm. I see around half my clients as in-calls, here at my flat. So if I spend around seven hours a night sleeping in my bedroom and, say, an average of three or four a week fucking in it, what proportion does that make for business use?
And what about the lounge? If I screw someone on the sofa, does that count as using the room for work purposes?
The trill of my mobile cuts through my ruminations. I check the screen—a London landline. I answer on the fourth ring.
“Stella?” He sounds American. Or possibly Canadian—I can never tell the difference.
“Yes?”
“My name is Gerald. I wonder if you might be free this afternoon. For an hour?”
I think for a moment. I should really get this done—the deadline’s in a few days. “Where?” I ask.
“The Randolph Excelsior. Knightsbridge.”
I check the clock on my phone. It’s nearly one. “What time?”
“I was hoping two o’clock. Does that suit?”
Another set of calculations. An hour to finish this—or at least wrestle it into submission. Five minutes to eat. Ten to shower and run a razor over all the bits that count. Add ten to dress and slap on some makeup, fifteen to dash to Boots for more condoms, and at least twenty to get to the hotel.
“Three would be better,” I say.
He hesitates. “Three o’clock is too late. A quarter after two?”
I inhale, make up my mind. Tax dodging it is.
—
At exactly 2:15 P.M. I’m standing outside Room 759, savoring my last few seconds off the clock. And the anticipation. You never quite get over it, having no idea who’s about to appear at the door, knowing in just a matter of minutes you’ll be as intimate as two people can be. Suspense has proved an enduring aphrodisiac.
The door swings open to reveal a tall, slim man with an unexceptional face. Probably in his early fifties, judging by the lines around his eyes and the recession in his hairline. Though his teeth as he greets me are improbably white—I’m guessing he’s had them bleached.
Gerald Archer stands aside to let me in. I give the place a quick once-over. The room is larger than a standard suite, the bed flanked by two dark, solid bedside tables. The curtains and walls are all muted beige; even the art print on the wall confines itself to tasteful neutrals.
Meanwhile Gerald conducts his own evaluation, his face expressionless as he takes me in. I smile, but he barely responds, and I wonder with a slight lift in my stomach if this is going to be one of those occasions when a client gets cold feet. It happens sometimes. A crisis of conscience, perhaps, or simply a case of not particularly liking what he sees.
I hover in the middle of the room, waiting for some kind of reaction. Gerald’s lips lengthen into a tight smile. “Would you like a drink?”
I shake my head. “No thanks.”
He nods. Pours himself a Scotch from a bottle on the desk. Takes a sip and sets the glass back down.
“You warm enough?” He gestures toward the thermostat on the far wall.
“Thanks, I’m fine.” To prove the point I remove my jacket, folding it over the back of one of the armchairs.
Gerald eyes me again as the TV chatters away in the background. He makes no move to switch it off, but then I’ve lost count of the number of North American clients who think it’s perfectly normal to screw to a sound track of CNN.
“I apologize for it being rather last-minute,” he says finally.
“No problem.” I’m wondering now if I’m here because another girl canceled.
“I wasn’t sure of my schedule, you see. Not till this morning.” His lips barely move as he speaks, giving his face a shifty look. I glance at his feet. He’s wearing red socks, a blaze of color in a room full of understatement.
“You look nice,” he says, taking in my gray Whistles sheath dress and black executive-height stiletto boots. “Very chic.”
I relax a little. Perhaps I was actually his first choice.
Gerald picks up the whisky glass and downs the remainder, then steps toward me and plants his mouth on mine. Cut to the chase, why not? I taste the Scotch on his breath, and beneath it something more pungent. Garlic, maybe. I repress the urge to draw away. This, after all, is what I’m paid for—the willing suspension of disgust.
“I’ve been looking forward to fucking you,” he murmurs, drawing back, eyes locking with mine. His are the kind of blue that fades with age, surrounded by heavy lids that echo the hint of jowls along his jawline. Otherwise, he’s not too bad. Handsome, even—or at least was once.
“Do you mind?” I nod toward the TV. He reaches for the remote and switches it off, then slips an arm around my waist, dropping his head to kiss my neck.
No awkward small talk. No inane attempts to make this feel like anything other than what it is.
He releases me and I bend to unzip my boots, then take his hand and lead him to the bed. We undress each other quickly. He pushes me onto the pristine white sheets, burying his head in my crotch, his tongue drumming against my clitoris with an insistence that makes me flinch.
He doesn’t take the hint. I endure it for a minute or so, then fake an orgasm. Nothing showy. You don’t have to go all When Harry Met Sally. A hitch in your breath, a couple of urgent gasps, a final undulating moan—that usually does the trick.
Gerald lifts his head, chin glistening, eyes glinting with satisfaction. Nothing flatters a client more than thinking they’ve got you off; it’s the challenge, perhaps, or the reassurance. They may pay for every minute of your time, but most want to believe you’re enjoying it as much as they are.
And sometimes I am. Just not today.
“One second.” I slip off the bed and grab a condom from my bag, tossing it on the bedside table. It’s then I notice the book—an Anne Tyler novel, the one about the couple who marry during the war. Next to it a pair of reading glasses, lilac with small diamanté chips on the outside of the frames. The type only a woman would wear.
Why not hide them? I wonder. A simple omission, possibly, or is he trying to make me uncomfortable? I consider asking, then remind myself I’m not his therapist; I’m here to deal with his cock, not his cognitive style.
I turn back to Gerald, who’s stretched out on his back, arms folded behind his head, watching me. I avoid his gaze. Look instead at the dark nest of his pubic hair. There’s no sign of an erection, so I bend down and take him in my mouth, changing the rhythm as he enlarges, trying to keep my thoughts on the job at hand. Done with full concentration, fellatio can be almost meditative: just my mouth and a prick, a little dance of mutual satisfaction. But my mind keeps wandering to the glasses on the table.
No wonder he was so antsy about the time. I feel a wave of revulsion, and drag my focus back to his erection. Cocks, in themselves, are rarely repellent. It’s easier to hide your antipathy if you concentrate on this—the business end—rather than the dick it’s attached to.
“Stop.” A slight gasp in Gerald’s voice tells me I’m in danger of going too far.
I sit upright, offering him a languid smile. “Too much?”
“Nice,” he says, his eyes not quite meeting mine, “but maybe a bit too nice.”
“Let’s take a breather.” I glance at the travel clock on his bedside table. Still half an hour to go.
Three years in the business and I’ve learned that pace is everything. It’s not rocket science. You’re working on roughly one ejaculation an hour for most guys over thirty—any more is too much effort, and puts you at risk of going overtime; any less and, well, you can forget that repeat business.
But Gerald clearly has other ideas. “Come here.” He beckons me back up the bed. I fold myself into his outstretched arm. He reaches over and caresses my breast as I trace a line down his belly with my forefinger and curl my hand around his balls, giving them a gentle squeeze of encouragement. I don’t want him wilting on me.
Premature ejaculation and a flaccid penis—Scylla and Charybdis, the rock and the hard place. The two hazards every working girl has to navigate.
Twisting round, I grab the condom from beside the clock. Rip the foil with my teeth, checking it over briefly before unfurling it over him. It’s tight, the rubber extending only two-thirds of the way up his shaft and pinching a bit at the top. It’ll have to do—Boots was all out of large.
I sit up and straddle him, lowering myself onto his erection. Gerald closes his eyes as he eases into me, slowly, firmly, lifting his hips to meet my downward thrust. I toss out a few responsive noises, until Gerald stops moving. He pulls out and removes the condom, then pushes me on my back and thrusts his cock in my mouth. A few jerks and he shudders into stillness. I swallow fast, but the hot, saline tang of his semen scalds my taste buds and I fight the urge to grimace.
“Well . . .” Gerald says as I wipe my lips with my fingers. “That was fun.”
“Mmmm.” I try to sound appreciative.
Gerald sinks back into the pillow. His face is impassive, his mouth a half smile.
“So tell me, Stella.” His tone deeper now, more relaxed. His gaze cool. Assessing. “Does your boyfriend mind?”
“Mind what?”
He raises an eyebrow. “You doing this.”
I eye him steadily. “Does your wife?”
Gerald’s left eyelid twitches. Slowly, stiffly, his lips contract, then he looks away. He’s up and off the bed before I can even think how to excuse myself. Wrapping himself in a dressing gown, he retrieves his jacket and, with a tight expression, hands me the envelope.
“Thanks,” I say, taking this as a dismissal. I dress quickly, silently. Gerald stands with his back to me, pretending to examine something outside the window. Turns only as I head for the door. His cheeks are flushed and I can’t tell if it’s from the sex or my verbal indiscretion.
“A word of advice, Stella.” His voice has a hint of quaver; there’s a tension in his expression as he speaks. “When you manage thirty years of marriage, you get to judge. Okay?”
I nod, genuinely abashed. Let myself out the door.
Neither of us bothers with good-bye.
—
Pressing the button for the lift, I dig in my bag for my inhaler. Release a blast of albuterol deep into my throat. My chest feels hot and tight. I want to get out of here, into the fresh air, find the nearest bar or café. Get something to chase away the taste of Gerald, of this whole inglorious episode.
What the hell happened back there? I ask myself as I will the lift to arrive. I never used to be so touchy. I’d let the crap clients said wash right over me, just deleted it in my head, like so much junk mail.
Another minute passes. I press the button again. Wonder if I should take the stairs. At that moment the lift doors slide open. I dart in, too fast to see the woman exiting. We collide awkwardly, and I drop my bag.
Half a dozen little foil packets spill onto the floor.
“I’m so sorry,” she gasps, though it was conspicuously my fault.
“No, no. It was me.” I stoop down to grab the condoms. Praying she hadn’t time to register what they are.
“These elevators you have over here,” she says, in a distinctly American accent. “They’re so small. It does take some getting used to.”
I stand to see a middle-aged woman, a Hobbs shopping bag in one hand, a man’s suit fresh from the dry cleaner’s in the other. My cheeks start to burn. My hand trembles as I fumble with the clasp on my handbag. I force myself to look at her face: worn, plump, but amiable. Kind.
Giving me the benefit of the doubt.
“I’m so sorry.” I jab the button for the ground floor. “All of it. Entirely my fault.”
Her smile is warm. “Don’t worry, dear. These things happen.” The lift door closes between us, sparing me the sight of her walking away.
But not the sinking, certain feeling that I know exactly where she’s heading.
THREE
FRIDAY, 23 JANUARY
I’m halfway through my Murakami novel when the phone rings, its shrill sound filling the tiny room. I answer the call, giving the name of the center.
No response.
I repeat the name. This time it’s followed by a muffled sob.
“I’m listening,” I say. “I won’t hang up. I’ll wait until you’re ready.”
No reply. I let a minute pass. I can’t make out much, only the occasional sniff, and start to wonder if it’s another prank call. You wouldn’t believe how many people think it’s funny to ring up a rape crisis center and jerk us around. And not only bored kids—plenty of so-called adult males.
“Do you want to talk?” I ask. “I don’t mind. I’m happy to stay here if you just need somebody on the end of the line.”
A voice clears its throat. I’m fairly sure it’s female.
“I don’t know what to say.” She’s barely audible, but I can hear she’s young. Probably a fair bit younger than me.
“How about you start by telling me what happened?”
A wet, sniveling noise followed by a long, low howl. “He . . . he . . . oh God, I can’t.”
A click, then the dial tone.
I put down the phone and rest my elbows on the desk. Glance up at the clock. Forty minutes to go before Stacy arrives to take over. It’s a Friday night—generally our busiest time—and we try to keep the lines open till midnight. We’d keep them open longer if we could get the funding.
Through the glass in the door I see Mel, one of the outreach workers, mime drinking a cup of tea. I give her a thumbs-up just as the phone rings again.
“Sorry,” a voice says on the other end of the line. Hers.
“No need to be.”
“I just . . . I feel so . . .” She goes silent.
“Embarrassed? It’s hard to talk about something so personal, isn’t it?”
She clears her throat again. “Yes.”
“Do you want to tell me your name? Your first name. It’s good to know what I should call you.”
“Andrea.”
“Thank you, Andrea. And my name is Grace. How about I ask you some questions. You don’t have to answer them if you don’t want to. You don’t have to tell me anything you’re not comfortable with.”
“Okay,” she says uncertainly.
“Did this happen recently?”
“Yes.”
“May I ask how long ago?”
She coughs. “I’m not sure exactly. A few hours.”
“And you’re alone now?”
“Yes. They’ve gone.”
They. I swallow. “So you’re safe, then. No one can get back in?”
“Only my flatmate, but she’s on holiday. She’s not home till Sunday.”
“I see. Andrea, can I ask you if you’ve got any injuries?”
“How do you mean?”
“Cuts, bruises. Perhaps a bump on the head. If so, you should get it checked out straightaway. If you think you need to, I can call an ambulance.”
She coughs. “No, I’m all right.”
“You’re not bleeding anywhere?”
“No . . . I don’t think so.” She starts crying again. A whimpering sound like an animal in pain.
I let her continue for a moment, then ask: “Andrea, do you feel strong enough to tell me what’s gone on?”
“Okay,” she gurgles, and coughs again.
“In your own time. No pressure.”
A sigh, like her breath collapsing. “There were two of them.”
“Do you know who they are?”
“Yes. Well, no, not really. One of them is called Michael. I don’t remember the other one’s name.”
Michael. Something ignites inside me, a curl of dread and dismay. The desire for a cigarette blooms and I have to crush it before I can speak. “How do you know him?”
From the café, she tells me, across from the travel agency where she works. He asked her out when she called in for her morning coffee, suggesting a drink in a local pub. It went all right, she says. His mate joined them briefly, then disappeared.
“I made my excuses after an hour or so, and he asked if we could do it again. I said maybe and left it at that. I could tell he was disappointed, but to be honest, I just wasn’t that into him. I didn’t think . . .”
She stops. I hear her inhale, then release it slowly. Imagine her heart racing as she remembers. One of the first things you learn as a psychologist is that processing memories and feelings is the primary treatment for any trauma.
But that doesn’t make it easy.
“He must have followed me home,” Andrea continues. “About five minutes after I got back the doorbell rang and it was him. He wanted to come in, but I said no. He asked, why not? Was anyone else there? But he knew there wasn’t. He knew my flatmate Dana was on holiday because I’d told him . . .”
She sniffs, followed by the sound of her blowing her nose. She’s crying again. Mel lets herself in silently and places a mug of tea on my desk, along with a chipped china plate topped with a couple of chocolate biscuits.
“How could I have been so stupid?” Andrea’s voice is full of self-reproach. “I’d said I’d got Dana this really cheap deal to Crete and he’d asked when she was getting back and I told him. I didn’t think anything about it.”
Forethought, I realize, making a note. Premeditation. Michael, you cunning little fuck.
“Then he pushed his way through the door and he . . . the other one . . . was suddenly there behind him. And . . . and . . .” Her voice breaks off. That wounded noise again.
“And they raped you,” I say. “Forced you to have sex.”
It isn’t a question. More a statement of fact.
“Yes,” she sobs. “Michael first, then him. Twice.”
Michael. Even hearing that name makes me want to vomit. The coincidence of it. And despite myself I’m picturing his face. Him attacking this girl. Though I know it can’t be. That Michael is still inside.
I take a deep breath, place the pen down on the pad, and pull myself together. “Andrea?”
“Yes.”
“Listen, honey. I’d like to suggest a couple of options, but you don’t have to do either if you don’t want to. I recommend you go to one of the sexual assault referral centers. I don’t know where you live and you don’t have to tell me, but I can give you some addresses or a link to their websites. They can check you’re not hurt and can do a forensic assessment, if you’re undecided about going to the police.”
I pause, but she doesn’t speak.
“Or you can go straight to your local police station. Is there anybody who could go with you?”
A long sigh at the end of the line. “What’s the point?” says her voice. “We both know what will happen.”
“The police are obliged to . . .”
“They’ll say I invited them, that I consented. There’ll be witnesses to us all drinking together in the pub.”
“Andrea, we can’t be sure that—”
“Yes, we can,” she cuts in. “I’m not stupid. I’ve read how hard it is to get a conviction. I wouldn’t stand a chance. They’d make me look like a slut, like I asked for it.”
I open my mouth to object, then change my mind. Because the fact is she’s right—and I know better than anybody how right she is.
“I only wanted to talk,” she says. “I don’t want to take this any further. I just needed someone to know the truth.”
Andrea starts crying again, heavy, resigned sobs. And I think of those two men and wonder where they are right now. If they have any real sense of what they’ve done.
Then I wonder whether they’ve done it before—or will again.
A rush of heat. Of anger. I have to clear my throat before I can speak.
“Okay, Andrea, I understand. But think it over, will you? You could go and get the forensics done and then decide.” I try to keep my tone calm and measured.
“It’s too late,” she says miserably. “I’ve washed myself, my hair, down there . . . everything. And put all the sheets in the washing machine.” A pause. “I’d throw them away, but they’re not mine. They took me into Dana’s room.”
I suppress a groan. Wonder if she’ll tell her flatmate when she gets back from Greece, or remake the bed so it looks like nothing ever happened. I get a picture of Andrea, sitting alone in her flat, the phone in her hand, and my heart aches for her.
I lift my gaze from the desk to stare at the bare walls of Consultation Room Two. We never use this place for face-to-face work, so there’s little to alleviate the starkness, save a cork notice board studded with aging council notices and a list of referral numbers.
“Is there anybody you could ask over, Andrea? A friend? Family?”
Another pause. “I think I’d rather be on my own.”
Then I’m certain. She won’t tell anyone. For the rest of her life and mine, I’ll be the only other person who knows what happened in that flat this evening. She’ll bury it inside and let it fester, until her whole world is poisoned by what seeps out.
I squeeze my forehead with my left hand, pinching the skin above my nose until it hurts. I have no more advice. And no more questions.
Just a prayer she’ll somehow be spared.
“Grace,” she says suddenly. “That’s a lovely name.”
“Thank you.”
“Like in the hymn.” She sniffs. “I always loved that one.”
“Me too.”
“Grace, I have to go now.” A sigh. Resigned and heavy. “Thank you for listening. I’m sorry to take up so much of your time.”
“It’s what I’m here—”
A click on the end of the line.
FOUR
THURSDAY, 29 JANUARY
Cruising past a line of black limousines, the black cab deposits me at the entrance of the Mayfair hotel with a good twenty minutes to spare. The po-faced concierge barely gives me a glance as I stride through the lobby. Not surprising, since I’m dressed more demurely than half his female guests.
I check my makeup in the ground-floor loos, then install myself in one of the leather seats with a panoramic view of the lobby, its giant chandeliers and high-polish art deco glory. The eyes of the concierge settle on me briefly before sliding off toward the main door. I cross my legs and smooth down my skirt. Hard to tell whether he’s sussed me out or not.
Not that it matters. There’s an unwritten rule in the best hotels: don’t make us have to notice you. It’s in no one’s interest to interfere with visiting escorts—we’re here to entertain their guests, after all. An unofficial room service.
I check the time again. Fifteen minutes to kill, but there’s no shortage of distractions. A minor celebrity strides across the lobby to the bar. Over at the check-in desk, conferring with one of the receptionists, a group of übersmart French women, sleek and chic in their tailored couture. An older lady, dressed defiantly in neck-to-knee fur, waddles toward the lift with the side-to-side pendulum movement of the very stout.
So far, so normal.
Less typical are the four men in dark suits stationed around the various doorways, their demeanor alert and attentive. I’m just wondering who might merit the heavies when several Arabs emerge from the nearest conference room, all wearing formal gowns and white headdresses crowned with black bands. They’re flanked on each side by more henchmen, eyes scanning the hallways like predators on the prowl.
I pick up a copy of the Wall Street Journal to mask my curiosity, but my gaze drifts back to the entourage. Three Western men are bringing up the rear, faces bowed as they step forward to shake hands with each of the Arabs. A double handshake, palms layered one over another.
As the foreign dignitaries sweep out to the waiting limousines, the Westerners confer. Serious expressions. Nodding heads. More handshakes, smiles, a slap on the shoulder. Then they leave.
All but one. Medium height and build, his hair heavily silvered, though he doesn’t seem particularly old. Late forties, maybe fifty. He pauses, looks down at the floor for a moment, then heads toward the lift.
He’s almost level with me when his head turns and his eyes meet mine. His lips stiffen, his expression darkening into something like irritation as he holds my gaze before finally walking away.
I stare dumbly at his receding back. What the hell was that about?
—
Paul Franklin’s room is on the ninth floor, at the end of the corridor in the smaller eastern wing. I find it quickly, used by now to the arcane numbering systems in places like this. I straighten my jacket, run my fingers through my hair, then knock quietly. I may blend in well downstairs, but a woman calling on a man in his room will always raise eyebrows.
No response. I knock again, a little louder this time. I’m just wondering if he’s a no-show when the door swings open.
“Stella,” says my client. “You’re nothing if not punctual.”
I gaze at the man who eyeballed me down in the lobby. Take in his faintly sardonic expression. He’s changed out of the suit he was wearing ten minutes ago, I notice, into a navy polo shirt and well-cut beige chinos.
“Sorry,” I say. Though really I’ve no idea what I’m apologizing for.
Paul Franklin gives me a derisory smile. “Come in.”
I pass through a wide entrance hall into a large sitting room decorated in creams and pale yellows, one of those haut monde designer affairs the hotel is famous for. Sharp-lined leather sofas and armchairs in complementary shades of duck-egg blue and beige. Splashy art prints on the wall, a bold geometric rug covering almost the entire floor.
Christ knows what this place must cost. A grand a night?
More, probably.
“Drink?” asks Paul.
I hesitate—I don’t normally indulge on the job. But today I feel edgy, strangely off-kilter. How did he know who I was?
Sod it, I think, sitting on one of the blue leather couches. “What have you got?”
Paul Franklin opens an elegant marquetry cabinet to reveal an array of spirits and liqueurs. A small inset fridge. “Whatever you like.”
“You choose.” I watch him remove several bottles. Pour liquid into a couple of glasses. A minute later he hands me a martini, complete with an olive.
“Impressive.” I take a sip.
Paul sits on the sofa opposite. He’s left the top buttons on his polo shirt undone, revealing an inch or so of lightly tanned skin and a suggestion of hair. He’s lean, muscular. Attractive without being overtly handsome. He mirrors my scrutiny, no expression on his face beyond the faintest hint of a smile. I wait for him to speak, but he just inspects me, not attempting to disguise it.
“So, you’re here on business?” I ask eventually, giving him the chance to acknowledge our brief encounter downstairs. I’m hoping for an explanation. He clearly recognized me, but I can’t imagine how. I don’t reveal my face on my website, though I’ll e-mail over pictures if a client asks.
He never did.
Paul’s mouth widens into something approaching a sneer. It’s unnerving. As I suppose he intends it to be.
“Come on, Stella. You can do better than that.”
Okay. No small talk, then. I take another sip of martini, wait for him to break the silence. Paul leans back, one arm resting across the back of the sofa.
“So, Stella,” he says finally. “Tell me more about yourself.”
“Such as?”
He shrugs. “Anything you like.”
A shift in my stomach. A discomfort born of annoyance. “There’s really nothing much to say.”
He laughs. A short, sharp bark of a laugh. “You’ve led such a dull life, have you?”
“Nothing exceptional.”
“Nothing exceptional,” he echoes, looking as if he knows better.
I bite my lip. “Nothing that would interest you.”
Paul Franklin crosses his legs, cradling his martini, his eyes never leaving mine. Christ, the man doesn’t even blink.
“On the contrary. I’m very interested.”
I feel the martini start to hit, the gin and vermouth flooding my empty stomach, making me a little woozy. He’s playing with me, I realize. I stay silent, forcing him to make the next move.
“Indulge me, Stella. Tell me how a girl like you ends up in a hotel room with a man like me.”
It’s not an unusual question from a client, and one I usually deflect with a quip about job satisfaction. But this man doesn’t strike me as the type to be fobbed off with a double entendre.
“I lost my job,” I say. “I had no money. It seemed an obvious choice.”
He considers this for a minute. “An obvious choice. You think so?”
“Someone I knew, a friend of a friend, went into it when she needed extra cash for school fees. I got in touch with her. She told me what to do.”
“Which is?”
I lift my mouth into a shrug. “It’s simple enough. You either sign up with an agency or go it alone—set up a website, get another mobile phone, wait for the calls.”
“Build it and they will come.”
I laugh. “Pretty much.”
Paul closes his eyes briefly. Then downs the rest of his martini in one gulp, setting the glass on the coffee table between us. “So far, so predictable. But I can’t help feeling there’s a great deal more to it than that.”
“More than being broke?”
He leans forward. “Come on, Stella. You strike me as a very resourceful woman. Surely you don’t expect me to believe this was your only option?”
A stir of aggravation. What is it with clients? Not content to get inside your knickers, they want inside your head as well. For a moment I consider calling it a day. Heading back to the peace and stillness of my empty flat, and bugger the lost income.
But something about this man intrigues me. Not so much the way he looks as his overwhelming air of power and confidence. I feel strangely energized, with a sudden urge to break the deadlock between us.
I drain the rest of my glass, get up, and remove my jacket. Taking a few paces toward him, I unzip the back of my dress, letting it slip to the floor. I stand there, in boots, stockings, and underwear, waiting for some kind of reaction.
Paul doesn’t move a muscle. Just watches me in that lazy way a lion eyes a nearby gazelle. Trying to decide whether or not he’s hungry.
“I can leave if you like,” I say, more to break the silence than anything else.
A twitch of his mouth, as if suppressing something. “No. That’s not what I’d like at all.”
“So what do you want?” I’m not usually this direct, but coyness will clearly get us nowhere.
Paul breathes in slowly. Considers my question. “It never pays to rush things, I’ve learned.”
“I agree.” I glance over at the clock on the mantelpiece. “But you only booked me for an hour.”
“An oversight,” he says. “I wasn’t sure of my schedule.”
“Okay. But perhaps we’d better get down to business.”
At this he stands. Approaches me, raising his hand to my chin. I feel a kind of shock at his touch, a rush of desire that may have everything or nothing to do with the martini. I move closer, lifting my face up to his, and he bends to kiss me. A hard, forceful, almost angry kiss. Full of sex. Full of promise.
A buzz from the desk, where a mobile phone is vibrating energetically. That look again on Paul’s face, the same annoyance as I glimpsed in the lobby—clearly this isn’t a call he’s expecting.
“One minute.” He disappears into one of the adjoining rooms, shutting the door behind him. I hear him speaking in what sounds like Arabic.
I stand there for a minute, then move to the window, examining the line of elegant terraced mansions across the square. The kind of voluminous town houses that sell for twenty million or more. Down on the street, directly below me, a steady trickle of black cabs deposits and collects the hotel’s guests.
On the other side of the door I can just make out Paul’s voice, raised now. Terse. Irritated.
I check the clock again. Half past four. At this rate there will barely be time for anything except a quick kiss good-bye. I feel almost disappointed; I realize I was beginning to enjoy myself.
Crossing from the window to the desk, I examine a lovely art deco lamp in tiered glass, then sniff the adjacent yellow roses massed in a clear round vase, but they’re scentless, purely for show. I run my hand over the dark polished surface of the desk, inlaid with a paler wood in delicate arches and swirls. It’s a beautiful piece of furniture, probably original, carefully restored. On impulse I pull on the tiny gilt handle to the top drawer. It slides open silently.
Inside is a slim black wallet. Beneath it two passports: one maroon, one blue. English and American.
In the other room I hear Paul talking again. In French this time. Fast and urgent.
“C’est moi. Alex.”
Alex? I grit my teeth. I’m not sure why this unnerves me, given I work under an alias myself. But it does.
I reach down to pick up one of the passports, but the tips of my fingers brush something cold and smooth. I pull them away, surprised, then bend to peer into the drawer.
Small, discreet. Mother-of-pearl handle and sort of vintage-looking.
But very much a gun.
What the fuck? Before I can decide what to do, the voice in the other room goes quiet. I shut the drawer quickly and take a couple of steps back from the desk, facing the door. But Paul . . . Alex doesn’t emerge.
I move in closer, trying to catch what he’s saying, but he’s speaking fast and my French is a long way from fluent. “Non, pas besoin . . . Je vous ai déjà tout expliqué, Philippe . . . parce que ce sont de vrais salauds, vous le savez bien . . . des salauds.”
Salauds. Bastards. I learned that word on a school trip to Boulogne.
“D’accord. Non . . . non, je comprends. Je prends le prochain vol pour Paris . . . oui . . . oui . . . à bientôt.”
A pause. I step back from the door just as he emerges. Despite the urgency in his voice only moments ago, his face betrays no sign of agitation. Alex gazes at me, half-naked in the middle of the room, as if he’s forgotten why I’m here.
“Get dressed.”
I don’t hide my irritation. It’s one thing a client bailing out at the beginning of an appointment; quite another half an hour in. Then I think of the gun and decide to let it go; this has all gone a bit off-limits for me.
Alex picks up my dress and tosses it to me. “Change of plan. I’ve got to catch a plane. Sorry.”
He goes over to the desk and opens the drawer. I freeze, but all he removes is his wallet. Hands me half a dozen fifties. Too many, but I’m not about to argue. I stuff them into my bag and pull on my clothes, avoiding his gaze as I make for the door.
“Stella.” Alex’s voice forces me to turn and look into his eyes.
“Yes.”
He smiles, if you could call it that. Somehow more of a smirk. “It really was a pleasure to meet you at last.”
FIVE
MONDAY, 2 FEBRUARY
By the time I spot Anna over by the double doors, I’ve nearly finished my drink. I stand and wave. She meanders across to my table, bending to kiss my cheek, and I get a waft of perfume, probably one of those exclusive couture fragrances she gets at Liberty.
“Sorry I’m late.” She sheds her coat to reveal a pale blue cashmere sweater and a pair of Dolce & Gabbana jeans that emphasize the already enviable length of her legs. “Had an appointment with my bank manager. It ran over.”
I raise an eyebrow.
“Strictly financial.” Anna laughs, then nods at my glass. “Another?”
“Just a fizzy water.”
“Seriously?” She frowns and regards me steadily. “You look like you could use something stronger.”
I relent. “A chianti, then. A small one.”
She’s gone for a couple of minutes, reappearing with my wine in one hand, a bottle of beer in the other.
“Thanks for coming at such short notice,” I say, grabbing my drink.
“Pleasure.” She sits down and flicks open the top on her Grolsch. “You seen that new agency, Eastern Alliance? Packed full of Russians and Lithuanians. None of them a day over fifteen by the look of them.” Her expression turns morose. “I think I may have to drop my rates again. The whole mature English rose thing doesn’t seem to hit the spot these days.”
“It’s the tail end of the recession,” I reassure her. “It’ll pick up.”
Anna doesn’t appear convinced. “Maybe.” She drains an inch off her beer, then spreads her hands out on the table. A cluster of silver rings on each of her long fingers. “Anyway, what’s up? You seemed a bit subdued when you rang.”
“Just having a bad day.” I shrug, suddenly reluctant to talk.
“A punter?”
I shake my head. Sigh and pull the envelope out of my pocket and push it across the table. She removes the single sheet of paper and flattens it on the table.
“Decree absolute?”
I nod.
She stares back down at the letter. “No wonder you’re feeling low.”
“Yep.” I shift in my seat. It’s also my dad’s birthday, but that’s something I’m determined to forget.
Anna leans forward and rests her hand on my arm. “Oh, Grace, honey, I didn’t even know you were married.”
“Not anymore.”
“You okay?” Her hand tightens to a squeeze.
I nod again. In truth I’m not sure how I feel about the divorce. Sad. Guilty. Relieved. Of course I knew it was imminent, but somehow finding the letter on the mat this morning, scanning those sparse sentences that spell the end of my marriage, left me breathless and hollow and in need of good company.
“I know what you’re going through.” Anna retracts her hand and runs it through her hair, revealing dark roots behind her ears. “I cried when mine arrived. Even though I hated the bastard.”
“I don’t hate him . . .” I let the words trail off. More like the other way round. I’ve given him plenty of reason to hate me. And I wonder, not for the first time this morning, how he feels about this. The letter spelling the end of his marriage.
Bloody jubilant, I imagine.
“It’s a kind of death, I guess,” says Anna. “Of what you’d once hoped for and believed in.”
I manage a sorry excuse for a smile. “Thanks.”
“For what?”
“For understanding.”
She sniffs and tips her head back. Downs another inch. “God knows, you need plenty of that in this business.”
Too true. I’ve known Anna since I went on the game. We met at my first duo session, and she took me under her wing, happy to embrace the role of mentor as well as friend. In a world as hard-nosed as the sex industry, I got lucky the day I bumped up against Anna.
“You’ll be all right tomorrow,” she advises. “It’s like turning thirty—horrendous in the run-up, but a relief once it’s over.”
“Thanks,” I repeat, grateful she doesn’t ask me any more about my marriage. It’s an unspoken rule between us that we don’t pick over the wasteland of our previous lives. I know only the barest bones of her past: the job in IT, the husband, a couple of children—now living in Norfolk with her ex and his girlfriend—that Anna hardly ever gets to see.
At the bar I see two men glance over, then lean in to confer. The taller one stares back at Anna.
I give a discreet nod toward them. “I think you’ve pulled.”
Anna turns and smirks openly. He looks away, embarrassed. “Come on,” she says, grabbing her coat. “Let’s sit outside. I need a fag.”
I leave our food order at the bar and follow her out to the small beer garden, deserted except for a couple huddling in the corner under an outdoor gas heater. Anna sits at the nearest bench, fishes in her bag for her cigarettes.
“Here, treat yourself. You deserve one, today of all days.” She holds up a neat honeycomb of filter tips. I shake my head.
Anna removes one and lights it. “Good girl,” she exhales, twisting her head to avoid blowing smoke in my face. “Hang on in there.”
We sit in silence for a minute, stunned by the fierce sunlight and frosty air. I stare up at the contrails high above our heads, the latticework of white lines against the blue winter sky. It makes me think of that man Alex, his urgent flight to Paris, and I wonder again about that encounter in the lobby. How did he know who I was? I’m certain I haven’t met him before, not in any walk of life. I may not be great with names, but faces generally stick. And his was definitely not one I’d forget.
And the gun. I can’t fathom how I feel about that either. Freaked? Not really. It’s hardly as if I’ve never come across one before—or rather the aftermath.
Maybe it was legal. But who, these days, is allowed to carry firearms outside the forces? Spies? Somebody in the security services? Undercover police?
Anna’s voice cuts through my thoughts. “You seen that guy again recently, the scriptwriter?” she asks, face raised as she exhales another pale cloud of smoke.
I shake my head again. “Last time we met he asked what I thought of his show. So I told him. It didn’t go down too well.”
“He can’t have taken it that badly.” She grins. “He was quite complimentary on PunterWeb. Gave you eight-point-five.”
I hold up my hand to stop her. “Don’t tell me any more. You know I don’t look at those things.”
It’s true. I never read anything clients write on the Net. Escort reviews are one of the least pleasant sides of the business—piss someone off and there’s half a dozen places where he can dress you down. Literally and figuratively.