Table of Contents
Editors' Note vii
1 Becoming an Addict's Mom 1
Nicole: Hindsight 6
Daniel: In Defining OK Poem 7
2 Motherhood 9
Rudy: Family 16
Peter: Invisible 18
Daniel: Me Poem 21
3 Daniel's Childhood 23
Nicole: Childhood 28
Peter: Damage 31
Daniel: Mother's Day Poem 34
4 Blue Mommy and Blue Peter 35
Peter: Treatment 39
Barbara: Letter to Daniel 41
Daniel: Letter to Mom 43
Nicole: Daniel and Peter 45
Rudy: Different 47
Barbara: Not a Miracle 48
5 Daniel's Addiction 49
Daniel: Dark Side of the Moon Poem 54
Nicole: Letter to Daniel 56
Daniel: Serenity Scene Journal Entry 58
Barbara: The Addicts Brother 59
Rudy: Daniel's Emancipation 60
Peter: Value 62
6 Cycle 65
Barbara: Contract 73
Daniel: Homeless in South Miami Journal Entry 75
Peter: No Trust 77
Barbara: Letter to Daniel 79
Nicole: Daniel Worsening 81
Barbara: Birthday 2014 83
Daniel: No Heaven Poem 85
7 Let Nothing Frighten You 89
Barbara: Forgive Everyone 92
Nicole: Grief 93
Peter: Turning Point 97
Daniel: tetter to Myself 100
8 The New Normal 101
Daniel: Letter to Alexander 105
Alex: Don't Let It Stop You 107
Daniel: Letter to Nicole 109
Nicole: Balance 110
Rudy: The Little Things 113
Peter: Find Your Mission 115
Daniel: Live for Your Family 118
9 Looking Ahead 121
Recommended Resources 127
Acknowledgments 133
About the Author 135
Family Photos 147