Wounded Trust: Living Fully In The Midst Of Life's Tragedies

by Mary Lou Yutzy

Overview

The awakening reality of the starkness of death brought Mary Lou Yutzy to the bottom and very core of her internal being. In the weeks and months that followed her loss, she was desperate to find God in the midst of her sorrow. Her trust in God was shattered and she was forced to feel by threads. In desperation, she began writing. What was meant to last six weeks went on for months as she slowly began to heal and re-stabilize her trust in God. The pain of the sudden loss of the presence of her daughter caused her to live moment by moment.
Kira graced her family with her presence for three years and two weeks. The gift of her life is a treasure to the Yutzy family that will never be taken for granted. Her energetic attitude toward life was an adjustment especially for the author as Kira grew. In turn, the joy Kira brought to all of her family was also great. The mix of joy and sorrow continues to be intensely painful. The Yutzy family will miss their daughter until they are reunited at last.
"Wounded Trust" happened simultaneously with the healing process of a deep wound. Deep pain can slice a heart open and expose our true nakedness in the eyes of God, and also those around us. Learning to live with pain in an imperfect world is an art with many bumps and bruises. The scar tissue surrounding the wounds are a constant reminder of how painful the experience of each one can be. The changes grief brings cause our bodies and minds to relearn new ideas, all becoming part of the end healing process of a wound. "Wounded Trust" is a picture of the beauty of facing pain, enduring its hardships, and embracing healing with an open heart.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781614481379
Publisher:	Morgan James Publishing
Publication date:	06/10/2012
Pages:	250
Product dimensions:	5.90(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.80(d)

About the Author

In the last sixteen years, Mary Lou Yutzy, has many opportunities through retail sales to relate to folks of widely varying location and background. The last ten years she has enjoyed assisting to operate Olde Homestead Suites, a small bed & breakfast located in the heart of Lancaster County, Pennsylvania. Her favorite part of the job is the continual interaction with people.

Table of Contents

Foreword ix

The Knife 1

1 the wound 3

2 pain 12

3 separation 17

4 to love a child 20

5 kira-who she was 25

Clotting 31

6 Jesus through the eyes of a child 33

7 reality staring us in the face 37

8 free, the way we are made to live 41

9 living with pain 44

10 to kira 47

11 fear 51

12 how it used to be 54

13 expectations of God 58

14 who am i? 60

15 broken dreams 64

16 the grace of God 66

Scab 69

17 sunshine and the cloud 71

18 disconnected 74

19 wanted: a map 77

20 coincidence 79

21 talking 82

22 the love of God 85

Stretching 87

23 disappointment 89

24 rest 93

25 six months 95

26 the circle 101

27 like a sponge 107

Trigger Points 113

28 balancing 115

29 the grave 118

30 the missing piece 121

31 searching to see 123

32 the last purchase 125

33 places 129

34 baggage 134

Natural Remedies 139

35 grief 141

36 outlets of pain 144

Cell Blockers 147

37 haunted memories 149

38 christmas thief 151

39 the Father s hands 153

40 in retrospect on christmas 157

41 learning 159

42 anxiety 161

43 my car 164

Acceptance 167

44 birthday with an invisible person 169

45 bitter cake 171

46 incidents 174

47 awkwardness 176

48 the bottom 180

49 worn sandals 182

50 bargaining 184

51 incompletion 186

52 the shirts 188

Healing 191

53 take me by the hand 193

54 a day of remembrance 196

55 God's pleasure 199

56 new dimension 201

57 choices 204

58 waves 206

59 puddles 208

60 the third dress 210

61 around the corner 212

The Scar 215

62 traveling with stuff 217

63 too many items 219

64 raindrops 222

65 bowl hat 227

66 perspective 230

67 reactions 234

68 mountain top 239

69 treasure 245

Acknowledgements 249

About the Author 251